cherish cats

kawan. ape itu kawan?adakah semua orang yang anda kenal itu kawan?lepak mates?class mates? house mates? school mates? and even band mates? adakah mereka semua ini kawan anda? atau rakan anda? temat anda mengepau makanan? tempat anda mengisi masa lapang? berkongsi gossip? atau hanya sekadar nak tambah list nama kat phone book je? ape itu best friend? kawan terbaik? kawan yang best? atau sekadar title je? nk nampak gempak. pasti ke anda yang diorg ni takkan back stab anda? asti ke diorang ni sume anggap anda sebagai rakan, teman, kawan, sahabat atau rakan baik anda? pe beza diorg ni? padahal satu hari nanti diorg akan tinggalkan kita jugak. diorg akan lupe kat kita jugak. betul kan? ape beza kawan biasa dengan kawan baik? sape lagi memahami? sape lagi supportive? dan sape lagi mengenali? sume orang tak pasti. kadang2 musuh pon bole jadi kawan. kawan bole jadi lawan. kenapa jadi camtu? nape mereka yang mengajak anda ke jalan sesat anda anggap mereka sebagai kawan, tetapi yang menghalang anda melakukan kesalahan seperti mereka, atau menarik anda dari terjerumus ke jalan sesat anda anggap mereka sebagai lawan? tidakkah anda sedar bahawa yang lawan itu lah kawan paling baik yang anda patut hargai. bukan seperti yang anda sangkakan kawan itu. kadang2 kawan yang anda anggap kawan anda itu baik seperti malaikat dunia. tapi bila anda tahu yang dia adalah syaitan yang bertopengkan manusia, ape perasaan anda? serba salah? marah? atau hanya mendiam kan diri?
aku masih tak mengerti siapa aku ni dalam hidup kalian. member? kawan? rakan? atau sekadar name yg bole disebut sebut, dan orang yg boleh digossipkan untuk menampakkan yang anda ini popular.



S, you have the luck but you dont grab it. pity you. i heard some rumors bout the old friend of yours. ?
oh and mr.P, tak paham lagi ke?! its none of my business so I DONT CARE.


current song:
- my sweet lullaby, by sweet revenge
- guys like you make us feel bad, by bless the fall
- emily, by from first to last.

WHAT HAPPEN TO EMILY??

the catcher in the rye by J.D. Salinger

it was my literature paper. gosh, i wished i cant be that hard. the past year's questions was goddamn unacceptable. but i still tried to do it tho. thank god i did it. my exam just now was 40% exactly the same as the past year's! babi laaa. the fucking things is, i studied catcher in the rye banyak kali gila and sangat sangat concentrate on that novel but then yg keluar satu soalan je? : the meaning of the title "catcher in the rye" and what does the title relates to the protagonist in the story.
pehh. siot gila. aku bace bagai nak rak, kau tanye tu jeee?? takpe. takpe. thanks sebab tanye soalan yg aku bole jawab. ahha.
esok: tido.

nways, i get the red alert. i'll stay away.SORRY

two days

sunday

woke up at 9 am, getting myself prepared for Ody's open house. Evidences cakap mau gerak pukul 10. diorg dari perlis kot. kul 12.30 baru smpai umah aku. haha. then gerak pergi cheras 2 kereta. sampai2 je makanan tak siap lagi. Ody pon baru mandi eh. korang ni semangat betul, kate Jiher. then sementara tunggu2 tu, Evidences pon buat picture whoring pulak kat rumah Ody, sangat embarresing tapi aku join jugakk. balik dalam petang tu jugak sebab Paan manager da nak balik hostel dye. so then sesampai rumah, terus tido. penat kan tak cukup tido. mlm tu bangun bukak buku literature. literature lagiii. hha. seb bek subjek best. study study study. dah penat rase lapar pulak. bile da lapar, malas pulak tu nak turun g beli makanan. takpe. biar je lapa. malas mengunyah. then study grammar pulak untuk exam esok. fuck. exam esok.eeee. tak suke. study study. da bosan. felt sleepy. tp baring je kat tilam, tak plak ngantok mate ni, something isn't right. i have to tell the truth kan. so then i spilled the whole truth, but ended with frustration. again. babi lahhhhh. im not blaming him. okayy.

monday

woke up at 7.30am. siap2 je da kul 8.20. dammit. aku da la nak jalan kaki. ish. cepat2 gerak pergi cmpus. the exam wass okayyyyyy. bole laa jawab kot. tapi sebab dah lame tak buat essay surat menyurat ni kan, so macam kekok cket. it was english language awareness. hope i could get A. :)
abes exam lepak dengan mirol, wok, radhi and a few friends of his.
balik rumah, study study study. literature lagiiii.

next paper: literature
then: introduction to IT in education
then again: islamic studies.

wish me luck! :)

some more words

oh and mr.P, selamat hari raya. 'MAAF' zahir dan batin.
XD

mocha frappuccino

as far as i know, blogging is the thoughts or journal or comments or critics or whatever the crap that the blogger wants to write about.

according to wikipedia,*just searched it* the personal blog,is an ongoing diary or commentary by an individual, is the traditional, most common blog. Personal bloggers usually take pride in their blog posts, even if their blog is never read by anyone but them. Blogs often become more than a way to just communicate; they become a way to reflect on life or works of art. Blogging can have a sentimental quality. Few personal blogs rise to fame and the mainstream, but some personal blogs quickly garner an extensive following. A type of personal blog is referred to as "microblogging," which is extremely detailed blogging as it seeks to capture a moment in time. Sites, such as Twitter, allow bloggers to share thoughts and feelings instantaneously with friends and family and is much faster than e-mailing or writing.

There are also some thoughts*from web* saying that blog is known as Weblog. It is a personal online diary or you can say journal which allows you to share your thoughts and ideas , you can add video, games, pictures music, you can read comments visitor leave on your blog. you can do all these things without the need of any programming knowledge.

so in this case, it doesn't matter what the fucking shit crap i wrote in this blog,that i made,with my name written on it, its not wrong. nobody tells that everything i wrote is illegal, right? so, dont tell me what to do, or what to say or what to write or whatever the fucking things that you asked me to do. i wont do it. i dont give a damn.
what the fuck, man!

p/s: kalau tanak sakit hati, tak payah bace blog aku, bole? oh and, why do you have to bother reading my blog? LOL
*gosh.what a jerk*

inertia

today woke up lateee. haha. tayah tanye la kul bape, tp tengahari la. then sume org. kek no weh, kate Jiher. sume kat uma. apo plan, tanye ayu. aku pon cadang la nk pegi karaoke. fuuhh. bess. aha. kemas2 umah jap, potong2 ayam jap, ayu pon sampai dari 'PD'. haha. takpo yu, den paham. haha. otw nak pegi karok, msg ar ajik sbb ajik kate kalu da gerak msg dye. haha. then karok la 10 lagu. dak ni nk jamming, dtg nameless tau, kate rafi. dey. jamming lagi. haha. dlm kul 4 lebey tu gerak la nameless. tengok2 nameless tak bukak lagi. Koi lambat plak nk bukak studio. ramai kawan2 rais, budak2 skola kat situ. adek Iz Rhapsody pon ade. *ngeh ngeh*
diya ngn rafi pon ade.
pinjam kete ayu jap nak bawak jalan2 bersama ajik. jiher,bwak la elok2, kate ajik. gelabah gak ajik ni kadang2. lekk la. pusing punye pusing akhirnye dlm kul 5.20 baru la Koi dtg bukak studio. budak2 skola ni jamming dulu. lagu2 lame douh. blink 182. aku pon sing-a-long. hahaha. seronok weh tgok adek Iz Rhapsody. da ar main bass. pehh. hahaha
then ayu chow, kena balik manjung. tata ayu!
then ajik jamming. lagu2 biasa. haha. tp besss. ajik main bass sbb takde bassist an. tp ajik main bass klaka. haha. sorry jik. :)
dlm kul 7 lebey balik laaa. sampai2 je umah, sume tengah kemas2 an. aku pon g la mandi. then tolong2 siapkan ape2 yg patut. kul 8 tu, orang sme da dtg umah. peh. ramai, kate jiher. makanan gila banyak sial. sape laa nak abehkan ni. aku ingt ade satay je. rupenye ade bbq skali. peh, ini sudah lebey. haha. msg ajik tanye kek no, tp beliau tak reply. oh lupe. pegi open house.
makan punya makan, kul 11 lebey ajik msg. mane,ji? ktorang otw umah dya, kate ajik. ala, aku takpat kuar. orang dtg umah.
dlm kul1 lebey tu baru la sume org balik. mknn tak abes sgt pon. haha.
tp sodap
tengs kepada yg mem'bbq' kan mknn ye, abg fuad, abg yan.



p/s: TAPAYAH NAK DATANG BACA BLOG ORANG NAK MARAH2. *paan,this is not for you.*

milestones

kul 8.30am, ajik msg. wey,tdo doe mlm td,penat gle, kate ajik. sangat pagi ketika itu. so aku pon sambung balik tido. dlm kul 10, aku diganggu oleh makhluk bodo yg suke call aku tak tentu pasal. so aku pon terbangun dan reply msg ajik. reply punya reply,jom kua, kate ajik.
aku pon gerak lah mandi. dah siap siap sume, ajik pon datang lahhh dari Pilah agak eh. ahah.
then pegi lah JJ sebab ajik nk carik gundam eh. carik punya carik, tak jumpe plak. mahal la bagai. otw nk balik tu, ayu call. korg kek no, kate ayu. ktorang pon kencing la. ktorang kat PD ni, kate Jiher. sian ayu. then gerak la peri Terminal. urghhh. tak besss. tp ajk nye pasal pegi la gak. haha. smpai2 carik la gundam si ajik ni. seb bek la jumpe. abeh duit dyo. pastu da tatau nk wekpo, try call rafi, diya, rais sume, takpek. apo kono ntah celcom ni, kate ajik. last dapek gak call rais. aku kat term ni, ngn ceot, kate rais. cis. dating pulak budak ni. tatau hala tuju, call2 rafi ngn diya tak dpt, pegi la Azhar maju kat depan term2. bosan tahap gaban. poie laa tgok wayang cite tsunami. agak sedey weh cite tu. should watch it :)
then da abes tgok wayang tu, call rais. aku kat mbo ni, kate rais. cis. kate da tgok wyg. sengal nye dak kecik. then call2 rafi, dye kat JJ lak ngn diya. adoi. nk poie mano ni, kate ajik.
seb bek rafi ckp nk pegi paroi. dye nk mkn. pastu aku pon ckp. amik ayu jom. call ayu, dye lak majok. adoi. then diya call ckp nk amik ayu lak. berebut sume nk amik ayu ha.
last2 mkn je kat BTY. tu eh la tompek eh. haha
ayu tacing laa. lek la yu. korg pegi men layang2 siap tuleh kek blog and amik gmba bnyk2 den sonyap yo. takkan la den dating ngn ajik pon nk tacing yu? haha. lek laaa.
bff an. haha
sayang ayu :)
forgetting things that i should really forget, little by little

current song: little by little,by Marion Raven

stalking

this is what i read in someone's comment board:

Sep 3, 2009 3:19 AM

-Dia-

Dia lebih cantek dr bunga,
Dia lebih terang dr suria,
Dia lebih berharga dr intan permata,
Dia menggantikan purnama di malam gelita,

Dia hujan yg turun di sahara,
Dia darah yg mengalir dalam jiwa,
Dia bagai udara yg sentiasa bersama,
Dia Sungai yg tak pernah kering airnya,

Senyuman Dia manis dr madu dan gula,
melihat Dia terubat luka,
yg duka menjadi ceria,
terima kaseh yg Esa menciptakan Dia...

a poetry i wrote is to some one very special in my life.
"Dia" refer to ms.F

from mr.P - 3:15am Thursday sep 3 2009this is her. she's pretty, isn't she?

macam membiarkan diri sendiri dicucuk pedang samurai berkali kali bile bace benda ni
memang banyak lagi yg menyakitkan, but this hurts the most. oh && when he wrote "i love you" to her,BOLD AND CAPITALIZED AND LARGE IN SIZE.
WHAT SHOULD I SAY MORE???
its okay,
im fine. thank you. :'(

hypocrisy

Four names the person that you love(besides your parents) :
-diya
-ayuni
-ajik
-rafi dan rais

Four of your favorite place to makan-makan :
-kenny roger's
-mapley
-mcD
-rumah orang

Four places you would rather be right now :
-extreme park
-ayuni's house
-ijan's burger
-nameless studio

Four things in the room you're in :
-photo frames
-bags
-pillows
-phone

Four things in your purse or wallet :
-receipts
-moneyyyyy
-cards
-pictures

Four speed dials on your cell phone :
1-diya ayuni
2- ayuni nadirah
3- mummy
4- haziq hanif

Four websites you visit :
-myspace.com
-facebook.com
-ajikhahaha.blogspot.com
-imsillyunie.blogspot.com

Four places you'd like to visit :
-Switzerland
-canada
-ohio
-japan


Four things you are looking forward to :
-slap,kick,punch,stab,and kill the fucking asshole jackass, mr.P
-finishing my new songs
-getting good result
-hang out with my bestfriendsssss :)

Four things found in your fridge :
-milk
-calci-yum
-apple
-tomatoes

Four person that you missed :
-diya ayuni
-ayuni nadirah
- haziq hanif
-rafie rusman

Four person you want to kill :
- mohd. Rafie Yusuf
-gojes babi
-joe PB
-mereka yg buat cendol tak sedap

eid. :)

hari raya aidilfitri
used to be the day that i've been waiting for and the day that excites me the most of all the days in a year. but not now.

hari raya aidilfitri
is just a plain day, not much diff, only what makes it shine is the new baju kurung that everyone wears.

hari raya aidilfitri
its just so plain without nenek,atok,mak tok and mak anjang. i miss you guys A LOT. *sobs*

hari raya aidilfitri
people starts sending forward messages to beg for apologies, but it never came truly from their heart,most of 'em i mean.

hari raya aidilfitri
will be sucks when us,students, kept thinking about our final exam thats coming up after raya.

no pictures. no stories. just some plain eid days.

counting the days before Raya

awal pagi lagi dah dengar jeritan dan laungan nama ku di rumah. adooiiiii
kena siap2 mandi2 berus gigi sume
semangat betul mak aku ni nak pegi shopping raya. lek lu. sap kok lu. pagi ni bai.
so terpaksa lah bersiap2. bukan ke mana pon. pegi parkson je. kecoh. ape ade douh kat sane? last2 dari nk beli baju melayu jd baju lain pulak. hish.
then pegi la zulda masri konon nk beli baju kurung aku. testing punya testing, tak bes la, buruk la bagai. so tak beli la langsung. bosan da ni.
seb bek ajik msg ajak kuar. buka ngn diorg skali. ajik dari 'KL' terus amik aku kat rumah. lame sgt ajik ni. hahaha.
pastu amik ayu ngn rais, then pegi JJ. rais ckp nak beli baju, tp aku ngn ayu gak yg beli.
then sempat ktorang shopping donut kat big apple. sodap. haha.
kuar2 JJ da kul 6. peh awal lagi ni, kate ajik.
tengok2 jam. sampai kat town sbn je da kul 6.30. mane sial nak buka puase, tanye sume org.
7 kedai makan telah pon kami pergi, tapi masih tak dpt mkn lagi. seb bek ade donut, so mkn jela donut kan. akhirnye, disebabkan selera yg sgt besar utk mkn lamb chop, ktorang pon singgah je ar Azhar Maju. mapley jugak jadi pilihan. seb bek ade lamb chop, kalu tak mmg aku bakar kedai tu.
hahaha

S.H

Short Holiday has just started.

my best friends came and had just made my day.

i dont think i will be having much fun this raya; exam final weh!

my thoughts of wearing white this year might be changed.
sorry,S.

and Selamat Hari Raya to all! :)

external sorrow in salvation

come on Guys,
please give me some time
i need some space or time or freedom or whatever the fucking word is, I DONT KNOW.
i just need to be ignored for a while.
sick and tired of listening to those broken promises all of you gave, which, the fucking mr.P used to say those to me.
S, im getting fucked up with u. please hate me. i'm begging you.
and P, things had become more complicated. i just cant go on with this, you're making me uncomfortable with you and them. i cant do it. i'm sorry :(
its better to be just friends than keep on arguing on such silly things with me, right?
A, u just cant stop blaming me on anything, huh? i still dont understand what do you exactly want since the last 2 years. explain, A.
and to this jackass i believed who's already has his fucking biatch, mr.P, you're just making my life miserable, you know. but then, just wait for my sweet revenge for you, mr.P


new favourite song:
- i'm so sick, Flyleaf
- ignorance, Paramore

LIKE I FUCKING CARE WHAT YOU'RE GONNA SAY!

WHERE'S CENDOL WHEN I REALLY REALLY REALLY NEED IT???!!!!! SANGAP SIALLLL

oxygen

mood: blurr. excited. scared.

thoughts: test esok. itik panggang. cendol. seremban. exam.

activities: farting. eating

unspoken words: i really really miss you guys, ayu,ajik,diya,rafi,rais,amir!

you

i read yours
i was touched. yes. i did
thanks for appreciating me. its the sweetest thing anyone had ever done to me.
but does it worth the waiting,really,S?

hidup

i thought moving on is the best solution for all this nonsense
but then it gets more complicated time by time
i had to pick the best one for me. and had to say goodbye for them who love me too.
sorry.
hope you'll be happy when i am.
but its better to be my friend than having a serious relationship with me
take care,S.