final

as plannned, Ajik picked me up at 8.30 am( i am reluctantly woke up!) from Shah Alam on Saturday also known as the final game for FA cup! Negeri Sembilan has made it till final and they,or should i say we? will have to compete with Kedah. 
at nearly 4, me, Ajik, Rais, Rafie, Umar, and Nami went straight to Bukit Jalil stadium. it was fun when we were on the road. we saw so many cars, Negeri Sembilan's fans' cars, put up flags on, or around their cars. it was exciting to see their spirit were like that. sumpah seronok gila! to see the buses, the cars, even the motorcycle itself has their own flags. how sweet :)
arrived there at 5.40++. it was a long journey to the stadium because we had to park like miles away form the stadium. had a lil troubles in getting in but, not much to say though, yag penting, HOBIN JANG HOBIN!
we won :)

ramai gila!! 

 became an artist

 pahlawan ajik yang ensem 

 before the game

 musuh: KEDAH.

 ajik sangat ensem sebab dikelilingi oleh 4 orang perempuan kiri dan kanan

 monang!

monang bai!! HOBIN JANG HOBIN!

third semester

HELLO NEW SEMESTER!

okay, macam budak excited je nak masuk sem baru. tak tak, tak excited. im not that nerdy okay. 

so anyway, this is my third semester studying in my BELOVED university, and this semester's gonna be a short semester, which means, 2 months of studying. 

fuckingly, before we even started the classes, we, nearly half of the dip tesl students, were informed that our mentor has resigned. and i was like, ape? then macam mana nak naik sem baru??? bak kata alea, kami kena tinggal terkontang kanting. whatever.

new semester has just started but, the exam results are still pending. and we have registered 4 subjects for this semester that are; critical appreciation, grooming and etiquette, english teaching methods, and english for general purpose. but sadly, we have to drop the english for general purpose subject and add it to psychology in education as there is no lecturer that will be teaching that subject. okay. and fuckingly, i just knew that we have to drop the psychology in education subject a.s.a.p as there will be no lecturer that will be teaching that subject TOO. and come to think of it, we have paid the fees for this semester for 4 subject, and now, we'll be taking 3 subjects for this semester. oh and i am so not going to make this happen.i MIGHT be adding one subject(if my result is okay) but before adding or dropping subject, we have to wait for a new mentor to consult us about this add-dropping thingy which will be informed in the next 2 or 3 days.  

sangat-sangat kucar kacir boleh tak! 

oh and, just copied the class schedule for this semester, and damn, i got class from monday to friday. no more friday-is-a-lepaking day. *annoyed*

to my bestfriend, Firdaus abd Azis, i hope that everything will be okay. take care of yourself, and dont let yourself so down with what you are facing right now, be strong. if anything, just buzz me, you know i'll be there for you. take care :)

oh and for those who will be having their final exam this whole 2 weeks, especially the matrix students and my beloveds, Haziq Hanif and Diya Ayuni, GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST !! ;)

after final's over

Spent my 2 days in Malacca, staying at Fatin’s the day after my final exam was over and the next thing i know, its Saturday and i’ve promised Ayu that i’ll be staying at her place on that day. Macam takde rumah kan? My family aren’t home so i have to stay at my friends’ house.

On Saturday, i packed my bags and waited for Fatin’s ‘friend’ to come and pick us up to go to the Malacca Central. Dammit! Bas. Okay, sacrifice untuk rakan rakan. Hmm, waited and waited and suddenly, Viva putih datang! Like OMG! I can’t believe that Ajik, Ayu and Belalang were standing right in front of the door. I was SUPRISED, again. (suke korang buat suprise kan!)

(singgah A&W beli float. *kagum ade A&W dalam zoo)

Had lunch cooked by Fatin’s mum and we went straight to the zoo! I am so EXCITED, seriously. I was happy that i met Tapir, Red Panda, Giraffe and a cute lil monkey that is SO EFFING SEXY but he likes to scare me off, really, for thousands of times. I was frustrated because i PAID to see the animals, but they were very lazy! Bak kata Belalang, “yelah, da duduk zoo, makan pon free”. Yeah, you were right. So anyway, we managed to capture most of the animals in the zoo, and i like them ALL! Especially Mr. Sexy. (LOL) oh oh and i was excited + scared when i rode an elephant! Tapi sakit bontot. L

(little pony)

(tapir yang handsome!!!!!!)

(cicak naik gajah, betul kan?)

(gajah yang pandai )

(actually, im afraid if that lizard bites)

(bertanduk!)

(harimau itu sebenarnya sangat besar!)

(orang utan tetek menggelebeh)

(kaki sakit)

(ini lah Mr. Sexy!)

(ye, saya lagi tinggi dari zirafah!)

(topi ini sangat cool! boleh ade spek skali. 2 in 1! amazed*)

Anyway, we spent for like 2 hours in the zoo, like seriously, pain in the ass man! Macam turun 10 kg je. HAHA. Then, right after zoo, we went to a place in which i don’t know what the name is called, but there’s a ‘jamban karaoke’ and yes, only me and Fatin sang in the box. Harapkan diorg, pemalu je lebih. Huh!

After sent Fatin back home and had a dinner at her’s, we went straight back to Seremban and i stayed at Ayu’s. I was surprised to see my nearly-finish-renovated-house! It was, urm, KELAKAR. Whatever~

The next morning, Ajik woke me up and Rafie, Nami, Ajik, Ayu and me went to say our last goodbye to Fik and Belalang that will be going to the National Service. Fik dah chow awal, so jumpa Belalang. Selamat berjuang korang! ;)

Then Ajik and i went for a movie! AT LAST. We watched Alice in the Wonderland and i agreed with what Britney said, it was a great movie. Thank you Ajik.

p/s: thank you Ajik for all the surprises and the kind things you’ve done to me. It’s been 5 months now, and i hope we’ll last till the end of my life :’) I LOVE YOU THE MOST, HAZIQ HANIF.

talk about life

parents didn't call since the day they went out of town. DISAPPOINTED

final exam's over. HAPPY

Ajik came to celebrate. EFFINGLY HAPPY

mum called. PLEASANTLY HAPPY

went busking with him and Fatin. GLAD

had a lil cooked-meal by Ajik's mum. HAPPY

begged for an apology to a friend. NOT FORGIVEN

parents aren't home. SAD

Ajik went home. SAD

called Ayuni. HAPPY

phone went missing. TERRIBLY SAD.

JAP. FOUND IT!!!!!! *Jiher was on the phone and heard the great news and just typed it out!*

okay. rasa macam dah lama tak tengok wayang. seriously. Britney Spears ckp kat twitter dye yang cite Alice in wonderland best. :)

p/s: jalan sebelah tak nak tegur aku. okay, memang salah aku hari tu tapi bukan aku tak mintak maaf. sorry again korg :'(

extraordinary

out of sudden, a thought just came out from my mind. "jom masak malam ni!" and me and Fatin went to buy some groceries and we planned to do a spaghetti! yuummmy~
i text-ed Ajik, told him that i wanted to cook, which is something EXTRAORDINARY for me, and then he decided to come over! i was like, oh my god, it better be really, really delicious.
to make sure that everything is PURR-FECT, i've been calling my mum for thousand times and still, i did some mistakes. i bought the wrong spaghetti, and the sauce is not enough for the 5 of us. :(

so anyways, around 9.30, Ajik, Rafie and Fikri came and pick us up and we had our so-called picnic at Extreme Park.

 well, they said that it was good, sampai tambah beberapa kali lah! hehe. tapi tak tahu lah kalau itu untuk jaga hati ke ape kan. we ate, and busked, gayed and watch a show. ape show entah kat Extreme park tu. though it was really a tiring day, but its really worth it. thank you Ajik for willing to come :)

ajik hot yaww

asap ajik

grrrrrrrr. aaaammmmm

busking and onlining

gaying

makanan licin!

yummy

gaying

ajik seorang yang jujur, menggatal depan mate aku ;)

thankss sebab sanggup makan makanan aku ye Ajik, Rafie, Fatin, and Fik. 

and and anddddd i love you, Haziq ;)

to a friend

Come to think of it, am i the one who started it? Am i the one who ruined everything? Coz you don’t seem to care nor notice me ever since the thing started. have i chose the wrong decision? Am i in the wrong path?

I do not know what’s in your mind now but all i know is you are so different from who you were before. And i keep on wondering what I have done that makes you act like this. You said you were okay but you’re not. You were caught lying to us, is that what makes you hate me now?

As for now, i just wish and hoping that everything will be alright. Frankly speaking, i miss you soo bad.  But i couldn’t say it to you coz you don’t seem to miss me. And yes, i miss all the laughter that we shared together, well, its a long long time ago. Till i cant remember when was the last time we did that. The jealousy started to cross my heart when i saw you missing somebody else, which was not me. Sorry but yes i am a bit jealous of that.

Sometimes i fall, and i wish that it was you are the one that hold my hands, but that was just a dream. So, as for now, you cant blame me for having someone else in my life, some more friends and one special guy in my heart. But still, i wish we could turn back the time and pause at the moments that we’re spending our selves together. I miss our yesterdays and i miss you..

1,2,3

its been a long time since i haven't update my blog. 

yeah. lots of things to do rather than typing unspoken words to this place. 

been very busy with mid terms, and friends and life and love.

but there are some things that i want to say to those who i think need to buy a very very big mirror.

stop backstabbing your friend. you know how it hurt when someone back stabbing you. 

and by wearing your mask, doesn't mean that i cant see your real face that you're hiding from her. i could see it with my bare naked eyes.

and stop hurting my friends. leaving them is hurt enough, but cheating and lying? its too much. screw you! dont you have any idea on what you say about her might affect her the rest of her life? dont you think what you did to him is too much? and dont you think you're too obsessed with your new life and that you've forgot who's been by your side all the time?

and yeah, the sudden change of you has made me think of something. you've not moved on. i know. i'm a girl too. 

and to those who keep on fighting about such a fucking silly things, just snap out of it. its ridiculous. you might think that you did the right thing but, come to think of it, who's there when you need someone? and you just want to end your relationship just like that? nonsense.

and you hate me coz i spilled the whole truth? what? you're scared? well, i'm not. go and tell others your lies. they would believe you, but i wont. and someday, you'll know how far you've been. 

i know im no perfect, but at least i'm trying. 

Last

last post. 

bukan bermaksud last post aku akan menaip blog, tapi last post pada tahun 2009. why? coz 2010 is coming tomorrow. tak tahu kenapa tapi orang selalu sangat excited nak celebrate new year. bila new year nak dekat je mulalah soalan sama je kuar. "new year kat mana, Jiher?" tak pon " this year katne wey?" tak pon "kau celebrate new year katne this year, Jiher?" aku hanya mampu pandang balik, dan senyum.

frankly, aku tak pernah celebrate new year. ye, saya memang sangat kuno dan tak up-to-date, tapi, perlu ke nak celebrate? satu kemestian kah? selama 18 tahun aku hidup, belum pernah lagi aku celebrate new year bersama rakanrakan, mahupon family.

ape yang aku slalu buat time new year?

ntah. aku pon tak ingat. makan kot? tido kot? on9? entahlah. yang penting sume tu tak penting.

aku tanya membermember aku yang celebrate new year, "korang celebrate slalu kat mana?"

then mereka cakap, "tak tahu lagi lah, go to private parties, getting high, you know, all those stuff" and ade jugak yg cakap, " lepak somewhere, getting high, and counting down the time"

oh really? macam gila lame ok!

yang aku tau, kot, new year mesti ade fireworks kat KL, then sume orang yg couplecouple datang dan tengok sambil cakap kat awek dye "romantik kan sayang?" in which aku tak rase benda tu romantik langsung, malah mengantukkan. note that ajik.

ape lagi? haa. mesti kat dataran manamana lah, ade buat countdown ke kan, and ramairamai orang pergi, mostly remaja. of course lah. buat pe si Pak Karim ngn Mak Limah nak tgok malam2 sbb diorg ade hal kan malam2.ehem.

saya taktahu apa yang orang buat time new year, tapi this year, boleh tak aku nak sit and play with the guitar, and sing-along with the not so good rhythm* haha*and feeling happy as ajik will be by my side this new year. ;)

enough talking about celebrating new year.

disebabkan ni last post untuk 2009, aku nak tulis panjang sikit.

2009 adalah tahun yang mendewasakan aku. *cheh*

aku habis SPM tapi tak kerja. ape yang aku buat time menganggur tu adalah melepak pagi petang siang malam.

dan get to know lotsss of people. uu

then aku start active dengan band aku. ye. band yang tak seberapa tapi dah mempunyai 3 buah lagu. wewitt. first performance kitorang was in CICT Maluri, Cheras. sangat membanggakan sebab dapat satu stage dengan Exorage! then kat situ lah kenal mereka.

tak cukup dengan perform di campus orang, kami perform di studio dan tempattempat public jugak. maklumlah time tu tengah excited kan.

then, aku stop with the band thingy sebab aku rase aku tak perlu berada dalam band sebab pembelajaran aku terganggu. tapi, ade pulak yang nak ajak buat solo. no, thanks. saya tak minat.

yes, i did write a few songs after the leaving, tapi untuk sukasuka.

oh, and ada satu lagu i wrote for this jackass, who, should i say, fuckingly fuck sebab tipu aku. dan lagu itu mengisahkan tentang katakata dan janjijanji manis pukimak dye yang tak pernah pon dye maksudkan.

whatever.

oh aku mengalami benda ni sume bila aku masuk di Management and Science University, di Shah Alam. di awal permulaan pembelajaran, aku mula mengenali few people dan skang most of them aku still hang out dan lepaklepak lagi. thanks ;)

subjectsubject di semester pertama was OKAY. tapi subject literature paling bestt! that is the subject that i've never skipped. pernah sekali, tu pon sebab orang ajak pergi shopping and time tu tengah gila tension. haha.

tapi satu semester je blaja literature memang tak seronok. kalau bole, harihari nak blaja literature.

my birthday this year was the worst. dont wanna talk about it.

then, had some conflicts in life sume, and on 30th october 2009, i am with someone that i love. wewwittt.

i started to get to know life, started to change a lil bit, not to mention, my looks, memang da berubah and orang ramai macam yang gila terkejut. hey, takperlu lah terkejut. rilex je ok. haha

but banyak sangat benda berlaku in 365 hari. and i hope, next year will be a better year ;)

long day of sunday and monday

20 disember 2009

pagi itu aku bangun agak awal. pukul 8 pagi. apehal aku bangun awal? sebab sangat excited pada hari itu! haha. bangun dan mandi siapsiap dan "jom pergi pasar ahad!!" tak pernah pergi pasar ahad so sangatsangat teruja. pergi bersamasama akak rumah dan OMG sangat ramai kot orang. aku terpikir, ramai jugak orang yang bangun pagi. respect lah. haha. pastu kejut si Abid dan Sarip sebab kitorang plan nak pegi Rantai Art Event lepas tu.
so, lepas peningpening pale tengok ramai sangat orang dekat pasar tu, aku pon dihantar ke KTM Batu Tiga, dan menunggu dan menunggu Abid dan Sarip untuk datang. sesudah satu train terlepas, tibalah kepulangan mereka. kami pon dengan bangga nya mengorak langkah ke Red Bungalow. sampaisampai je, Eiqa jemput dan promote booth adiknya.

borak dan borak dan borak

bosanlah. so kami pon masuk ke bungalow tersebut dan amikamik gambar. tapi, kami terstuck kat atas tengok dokumentari. 3 movies kot tengok. pasal Islam, pasal Burma dan pasal Tapau. tu je. pastu blah pegi makan kat maple berdekatan. ternampak Fynn Jamal dan rakanrakan. excited! tapi tanak tegur. segann. haha

makanmakanmakan

damn!
boleh tak tengah syoksyok borakborak tibetibe ade free show pulak kat sebelah aku?
ade kucing nak menggatal pulak. 
yang si pompuan tu bergulingguling, yang si laki tu, muke takde nafsu je tengok pompuan tu. pompuan tu panggilpanggil laki tu datang dekat dye. pastu bile laki tu datang dekat dye, baru nak start je, laki tu blah. pastu lari jauh sikit. pompuan tu pegi kejar! wey. gatal lah kau kucing!! pastu laki tu tengok dengan takde nafsu lagi. tapi maybe sebab menyampah tengok si pompuan tu punya aksi yang tak mengghairahkan, dye pon try lagi. skali lagi, baru nk try, laki tu blah lagi. kesian kau kucing. tak laku. pastu dye pon blah gak. frust agaknya. haha

"aku dah sampai" kata ajik.
wey! excited aku ajik dah sampai. tunggu punya tunggu, akhirnya sampai jugak. aku pon pergi ke KLCC untuk menjemput beliau.
pusing punya pusing, kitorang makan lah kat Nando's. jumpa syafiq. urm, rakan skolah rendah.

makanmakanmakan

gosh! dah lambat. kena cepat. tapi apakan daya, kaki ajik sakit. so tak boleh jalan cepat sangat.
aku ade performance malam tu dengan evidence speaks. tibetibe baru dapat tahu tengahari itu. so bergegas ke ktm dan berhenti di Kampung Dato Harun. merekamereka si rockstars sume dah tunggu dengan muka yang sangat garang. sorry lambat, kata jiher dengan selamba. haha
bergegas ke Petaling Jaya. ape tempat ni? dewan ape? haha. tapi Beeha yang jemput. tengah dudukduduk tu, nampak lah Fynn Jamal dan Wani Ardy. wey, aku nak tengok diorg kat Rantai tapi tak sempat. tapi dapat perform dengan diorg kat sini kot. satu stage. banggabangga.
setelah tamat sesi perform memerform ni, kami pon bergerak dgn 3 kereta ke maple berdekatan.

minamminamminam

setelah puas bergelakketawa dan bergurausenda, aku dan ajik dihantar pulang ke Extreme Park
buskingbuskingbusking sampai lapar
pergi singgah di Rafi lagi.
makanmakanmakan
sampai pagi.
morning peps!
kami pon bergegas ke ktm dan fly to Jengka! haha. first time pergi jengka! sangatsangat teruja.
balik tu, nasib baik kelas cancel. kalau tak, rugi wey.
hari yang sangatsangat memenatkan dengan kasut wedges 2 inci itu.
sleep tight darling <3

stars, moon and the sun

sometimes, these thoughts came up from my mind
how i wish i dont have friends
how i wish i dont have a family
how i wish that i am alone
how i wish i am not me
but the wishes can never be true. i need 'em but it put guiltiness to my face.
i'm stuck in the middle,
choices that can't be choose.
reasons that aren't reasonable.
excuses that aren't meant to be excused.
i'm in the middle of myself, of being myself.
why can't anyone read my mind?
why can't anyone feel what i feel?
oh yeah, i'm always the one who doesn't understand when i'm trying really hard to fix up your tangled thoughts.
then who's gonna fix up mine?
i dont have the strenght to live with out 'em, but somehow, i get the strength myself as they keep on weakening me.
i'm trying to be strong
so, i put up some fake smiles.
fake.
while i am emitting crystal water from my eyes
and the wounds.
it keeps on hurting and hurting and hurting.
no, none of you are wrong. don't blame yourself.
and don't blame me too.
i cant stand of holding this guilt and sorrows by myself.
though now that i am much happy, not like i was
but im still trapped in the middle.
of stars, moon and the sun.

mending wall, by Robert Frost

Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That sends the frozen-ground-swell under it,
And spills the upper boulders in the sun,
And makes gaps even two can pass abreast.
The work of hunters is another thing:
I have come after them and made repair
Where they have left not one stone on a stone,
But they would have the rabbit out of hiding,
To please the yelping dogs. The gaps I mean,
No one has seen them made or heard them made,
But at spring mending-time we find them there.
I let my neighbor know beyond the hill;
And on a day we meet to walk the line
And set the wall between us once again
We keep the wall between us as we go.
To each the boulders that have fallen to each.
And some are loaves and some so nearly balls
We have to use a spell to make them balance:
'Stay where you are until our backs are turned!'
We wear our fingers rough with handling them.
Oh, just another kind of out-door game,
One on a side. It comes to little more:
There where it is we do not need the wall:
He is all pine and I am apple orchard.
My apple trees will never get across
And eat the cones under his pines, I tell him.
He only says, 'Good fences make good neighbors'.
Spring is the mischief in me, and I wonder
If I could put a notion in his head:
'Why do they make good neighbors? Isn't it
Where there are cows?
But here there are no cows.
Before I built a wall I'd ask to know
What I was walling in or walling out,
And to whom I was like to give offence.
Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That wants it down.' I could say 'Elves' to him,
But it's not elves exactly, and I'd rather
He said it for himself. I see him there
Bringing a stone grasped firmly by the top
In each hand, like an old-stone savage armed.
He moves in darkness as it seems to me~
Not of woods only and the shade of trees.
He will not go behind his father's saying,
And he likes having thought of it so well
He says again, "Good fences make good neighbors."


i like this beautiful poem, the literally meaning, and the deeper meaning. try to understand what it relates to friendship ;)

thursday ;)

i woke up at 11am, an hour before the class starts. had a loooong talk with Ajik last night.wewittt! :)
anyway, after getting myself prepared, i walked myself towards my campus. so supposedly, my class schedule for today was suppose to be like this:

- Presentation skills: 12.00-1.00pm (1 hour)
- Philosophy of education: 2.00-4.00pm (2 hours)
- Sociology of education: 4.00-7.00pm (2 hours)

BUT, fuckingly, there was this one student who I DONT KNOW WHERE THE HELL DOES SHE COME FROM, said that she has class ape ntah so macam kena tuka schedule. SIAL. so i was like "so?kau sorang je kan. tayah kecoh" and the lecturer was like "okay, so lets change it a lil bit shall we?" and the suggestion of the classes for today were said to be like this:

-Presentation skills: 12.00-1.00pm (1 hour)
- Philosophy of education: 1.00-4.00pm (3 hours)
- Sociology of education: 4.00-7.00pm (3 hours)

and i was like " FUCK LA WEYH! bile nak makan la sial????" and what do you know, freakingly, some of my classmates were like sooo agreed with the rhe SEVEN HOURS OF NON-STOP CLASSES. oh, aah. kelas memang lah sangat dekat kan. campus dengan annex dengan campus. memang jalan pon seminit je kan. grrrrr. logically, human beings can only concentrate in class for only 45minutes. so 7 jam bole concentrate ke???? camne nak dapat 4 flat ni weh?
so anyway, during sociology, i was bored and could not concentrate,plus, MENGANTOK! it was suppose to be the most interesting subject of all subjects this semester but takde mood lahhh.
oh and guess what, MSU BANJIR LA SIAL!  i thought pantai timur je yang banjir tapi shah alam pon banjir okay.

learnt in sociology:

words that could change your life..
- i'll be there
- i miss you
- i respect you
- count on me
- i guess you're right
- i thank you
- let me help you
- i love you

wuuu. ailapyuajiko. <3

faces

i have a few friends, that light up my light, that give me strength and lead my way.

Diya

well, she's the greatest. i've been friends with her for nearly 11 years. quite a long time. and she's the only friend that i am still with, since i first stepped myself into school till now. we've been through a lot of bittersweets in our lives. the laughters, the fights, the punishments, the fears, the glory, and everything. it's always her that's by my side. she was a very BISING and naughty girl in school. we did lots of bad things together. kan diya kan? XP we even had our own songs when we were little and damn i couldnt remember the songs coz i've lost the books. *haha* but as we're growing bigger and bigger, things has started to seperate us from ALWAYS being together. she has her own path and i have my own too. but regardless of our different paths, and the distance, we're still bestfriends no matter what. *loveyouloveyou* <3

Ayuni

well what do you know, we're bestfriends right? i used to ignore her when we were in primary school,*coz you're a prefect,which me and diya hate so much* but then again, when we've finished primary school and went to high school, things has started to change. we started to hang out like thousands of times a day and we're like sisters already. we've been through so much challenges. and yes, so many guys have passed. *LOL*  she's a very unpredictable girl,trust me, you wouldnt know what she's like inside. but i started to learn about her day by day and now i know her. tol tak yu? ever since we started to hang out together we are so so sooo close. everything that's hers is mine, and whats mine is hers too. but, not to a guy. *LOL* and yea, she's been my bestfriend for like 5 years plus. and i love her more than everything *muahmuah*

haziq

ok. well so this guy means a lot lot lot lot to me. i tell you why. i met him when we, diya,ayu,rafi,rais,him and aizat, went out for a movie. well i didnt know him at first. he was, i mean, is, a shy guy, with unspoken words who's always acts cool. i was like, damn this guy macam gila hot. *gatal* but then i didnt get the chance to, you know, have him. so, yeah, lets be friends. friends,friends,friends. for quite some time,the six of us has been hanging out a lot, and we were like so close to each other. and that's when i started to get to know him better. :) so days passed by and i just have to keep my feelings towards him by myself and go on my life with some jackasses.*it was so stupid of me* then i was like so down like hell, it was all gloomy and darkness that surrounded me. but then he came, as a hero*ceh* to save my soul. well, what would you say if your bestfriend says that he loves you? i was fucking speechless, but i was excitedly happy. and now, he's my special, i mean, the most special best boy friend i ever had.he always makes me laugh,i mean all the time *aku sangat penat ok gelak2.haha* nothing that could represent my thanks to you, and, i love you always,gemok :) *winkwink*

rafi

pelik tapi benar. i dont have a picture with you lah fi! haha. sorryyy. so rafi. hmm, he's diya's beloved, that is how i know him. well, obviously, he is a very kind-hearted person sbb sangat2 supportive *damn jangan bangga ok* and sometimes, he is funny because of his words. i do like to see them, rafi and diya being together coz they are like the sweetest thing ever. oh, rafi is my bf's bestest friend, sebab diorg adalah GAY. cium2, peluk2. ewwwww. i'm just so lucky to have a friend like him, as there's no one that could replace a kind-hearted guy like you. *hugs*

rais

he is hot,awesome,cool and cute! tapi budak2 lagi. haha. i was amazed when i first saw him playing the six strings machine. i barely hang out with him coz he's busy with school and stuff but after ni he'll be free from school and hello savvy! haha. he is a brother of a rockstar. so everytime dye pakai baju abang dye org kasut abang dye org whatever, i just feel like i want to kiss it, you know. sebab rockstar kan. haha. rais is a very wierd guy though. sebab suke nyanyi sorg2 and senyum sorang. well he's sometimes a bit blurrrrr. but tetap comel dan macam rockstar *pokpok*

mirol

the 2nd person that i met on my first day there!sangat cepat kan kte berkenalan. thanks to Abid and Sarip.*hugsss* he's a guys with full of thoughts and words. i hate it when he's heart is broken coz he doesnt deserve to be broken. * lets kill miss.M shall we?* so nway, he understands me, A LOT. . thankyouthankyouthankyou. he's my closest guy friend in college as we're in the same class and in the same mentoring group and plus, we have this same thoughs about music, life, and people. mirol,there's still some years that we have to get through, so be tough my friend :)

halve and bob

they are the first outsiders that i met when i was in the second week there. my first thought of halve was, wey dye ni macam bapak orang lah, macam perogol pon ade. but then when i started to get to know him, he is a nice guy and a very concern friend. thankyousoomuch. we have the same thoughts on music and what makes me adore to be his friend is that he has this cool band named Evidence Speaks,screamo, and i really2 like the songs. seriously. takde tipu2. since then, i hang out with em and Halve's bandmates a lot when i'm off campus. they're a good friends, not to forget some others like, Man, Paan and Pete. bob pulak, is a funny guy yang suke bajet comel. haha. and yeah, he's a good brother, sume benda tak berkira. tengkiutengkiu. *huggsss*. come to think of it, diorg ni sume dah tua! so, dah macam guardians aku kat sana. *joke*

wok

wok is the greatest! for those who hates him, tolonglah get to know him. he's a funny guy and really really nice. dye sangat2 rajin, he never missed a class. and how dare some of you say that he's stupid and tak blaja. duhh~ pointer dye lagi tinggi dari kau kot. whatever. anyway, he always marah me when i didnt come to class and when i keep on talking about this guy and this guy and this guy. i know it annoys you, sorry wok. hee~ ohh and im so so glad that you've found your angel :)

gossip girls

I AM EXCITED THAT I HAVE THIS SO MUCH OF GIRL FRIENDSSSS :)) and these girls, are so so cool. fatin nabilah, fatin surayya, fatin nadirah, alea, syafika, jiha, yus, myra and intan. sangat2 best kawan dgn mereka. oh and yeah, everyday is always our hot topics. ade saje gossip nak dicerita. it doesnt matter where we are, mesti stop untuk bergossip for hours and hours and hours. one day is not enough to tell all the gossip, right girls? haha. and seriously they are veryvery nice to me. thankyouu. babe, kite study rajin2 and dapatkan 4 flat so kompem2 lah bole kalahkan gojes kan*which until now takde sape tau result dye brape* stay friends! *lovelovelove*

eiqa

oh thanks to mister oren a.k.a mono the times, a.k.a gemok a.k.a budak london sebab introduce me to this very kind-hearted person. oh and what do you know, we hate the same jackassssss! and we share lots of stories and problems and laughters together and now kami macam dah rapat2 kan kankan.oh and now dye dah dengan budak kecik.opss.haha. *huggsss* i'll make sure that i will have plenty of time with youuu *muahmuah*

oh and yes without them, i am nothing in this world. thank you friends *muahmuahmuah*

oh and to those whom i didnt mention their names above; ferol,shuttle,eiqa,nana,qis,qilah,panjang,mas syafiqah,madihah,nadia,fellow classmates,ex-classmates and the list goes on, korang pon best jugak *winkwink*

welcome back

semalam aku ke campus. amik result. ramai sangat orang. sesak macam biasa. fakulti aku penuh dgn org yang menunggu giliran untuk amik result masing2. aku dari Seremban rushing2 naik ktm, teksi sume, sampai2 je da lunch break.babi. penat je. tp nasib baik aku sampai2 je first thing that calms me down is aku nampak Mirol, Wok dan Fatin Sue. aku excited. lame tak jumpa. then sebab lunch break, kitorang pon pergilah minam2 kat Ali jap. pastu, dah abes lunch break, aku dan Syafika bersama Eiqa pergilah ke campus dgn cuaknye nak amik result. damn. kene amik nombor pulak. lame douh nak kene tunggu. kat luar tu, aku dengan eiqa sebok dok kire2 possibility pointer aku brape. maklumlah. cuak pnye pasal kan. tak confident langsung aku akan dapat brape. paling aku cuak subjek Intro to IT in education dan Islamic studies. mcam fail je.ish.
tunggu.tunggu.tunggu.
yess! my turn!
masuklah dalam bilik tu.
tunggu.dan tunggu.dan tunggu.
Najihah Roslan.
man, cuaknye.brape lah aku dapat kan.
*awak pergi kat account department pastu active kan ID.
sial. aku ingt da siap da sume. aku dengan muke sabar pegilah acc department dgn eiqa. peh, ramai sial orang. dgn budak2 PTPTN lagi. budak private lagi. ni lah masalahnye kalau masok universiti swasta yang tak maju. huh.
amik nombor lagi.
tunggu.tunggu.tunggu.
babi. dah 15minit aku tunggu. spatutnye lane aku tak lah ramai orang.
so aku pon cutting jela. rupenye nombor yg aku dapat tadi dah lame da lepas. siot je wey. seb bek abg tu buat aku punye kejap je.
gerak lah balik untuk g amik result. malas aku nak amik nombor. aku terus masok je dlm bilik tu.
Najihah Roslan.
dupdapdupdap.dupdapdupdap.
yess! aku pass. 3.04.
it was okay lah kan? untuk first sem. ok je tu.haha
aku pon keluar dengan muke senyum2 kambing.
thanks eiqa.kau buat aku confident.
then, aku tau2 je mentor aku lak sakit. so dye kene balik awal.
damn. aku tak buat registration lagi ni.camne douh?kene datang jumpe dye hari Jumaat pulak. the only day.weyy, aku balik hari kot.
Alea pulak datang. kesian dye tak bwk ID.
then aku balik rumah, kene pumpangpumpang sume, pegi pasar malam dengan ayu dan ajik.
cendol.cendol.cendol.*yummyyy*
ayu belanje kitorang Mekdi wey. *muahmuah ayu*
balik tu, aku tido awal. tp terbangun kul 11.30mlm.
tau2 je free call aku da abes. damn. takpelah. what to do. tido lagi bagus.

kat campus semalam, aku nampak. tp aku buat2 tak nampak.slalunye, kalu dulu, time kawan2 dulu, bile nmpak aku je, mesti dye ketuk pale aku. saket. tp tu mmg dye. tp skang, GO TO HELL. aku tak maafkan kau mr.K. the lies aren't acceptable.

addition:
big clap for my classmates yg dapat Dean's list. *bangge la tu amir*

the poison lips

sometimes, i mean, most of the times, i feel so annoyed with all the people around me who's trying to impress me. well i dont get impress to your fake smiles FYI. what does it takes for you to stop making me as your subject? what does it take for you to stop making me impressed with you* though im not very impressed at all*? it'd risk it all.seriously.

another words;
yea, i'm happy with my life now, and i'm damn regret for what i've done before. so don't laugh at my pasts and just support me for my future. you know how hard it takes for me to fix it all. its really hard for me to loose it all. all i want is just to be normal. not the person that i used to be. i just wanna be normal. with no people outside who notice me, so that i could live my life in peace and harmony.

and FYI,
i hate jackasses. so please just step away. i mean it ;)

p/s:
i love you, H.

oh and my bestfriend, miss ayuni, get well soon. ilysm :-*

exam

18th November 2009.

apsal aku tak nervous? oh, sebab ini bukan tarikh keramat aku!
those who are born in 1992 will be sooo nervous about this.

SPM.

aku pon cuak kot kalau SPM.
so anyways, good luck y'all! make sure that you remember everything that you've studied so far and everything that you teachers have taught you.
to my closest friend who will be sitting in this exam, Rais and Aisa, BEST OF LUCK i wish to you :)and yea to all of my juniors, and blah blah blah, good luck too

blog and friendship

oh mr.K i just read your blog today, well i dont know why it came up from my mind to read yours. but yeah, OUR FRIENDSHIP IS OVER. and its not my fault for making it over. YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IS FUCKING STUPID. i guess you have read on what i posted before about SECRET. and i REALLY HOPE that you wont do the same you did to me to your other honourable friends. because, just so you know, it hurts a lot, its like u shoot me to my heart and the bullet stays. until now i still can feel the bullet that stucked in my heart. and yes, THEY HATE YOU TOO.and they are with me now. thanks for your nice and good behaviour. well my thought of you aren't the same anymore. and sorry to say, I REGRET BEING YOUR FRIEND, MR.K. aku tak heran lah tak dpt kawan macam kau. tak rugi langsung. LANGSUNG. ramai lagi lah good friends. and i hope, your friends just love having you as a friend,sebab kalau tak kan, kesian kan kau takde orang yg sayang kau. :)
have a nice day, LOSER!
oh and, spoiling me wont make you get even better. you'll see.
its jiher that you're dealing with. xoxo

the Yellows and the Reds

so as it is said, Negeri Sembilan won the game. i was happy too sebab dapat cuti.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7wBT9NWIKcs&feature=player_embedded

tahniah orang kampung. den banggo ni ha :)