drama acts

The first day of class was, urm, wasted! Datang kelas penat penat redah panas terik di waktu tengahari, tibatiba lecturer masuk, introduced herself, gave her phone number, took attendance, and thats it. Damn. Penat je. Then the second class was, exciting, maybe because its another literature class, its just that the name of the subject wasn’t literature, but critical appreciation. Just a few minutes in class, and the lecturer, my beloved lecturer actually, said that the midterm will be at the end of this month, which means, IN ANOTHER FEW WEEKS MY DEAR! Okay, baru start kelas dah kena fikir pasal midterm? Whatever. And assignments! Damn, nasib baik based on poems and short stories, if tak, memang sangat sangat tak menarik!

About that add-drop thingy, i was told by the lecturer that i cant add another subject, because of lack of lecturers and it might be hard if i take 4 subjects because each subjects will be in 6hours credits. Eventhough i was much much upset, but, whatever, 3 subjects as it is!

My plan of cooking at home is going pretty well. I cook once a day, as lately, i don’t have much appetite though. But it was just a little cooking thingy, coz i don’t really know how to cook except for Maggie.

Okay lately, i’ve been dreaming of wanting to continue my studies in UPM, and take the English Literature course there. And then, after finished studying, maybe, i want to work, as a teacher, at Sabah or Sarawak. Don’t ask me why, coz i know you know why. LOL.  So anyways, i was informed by Ajik that he’s going to fly to Indonesia this August, during his birthday. Ouch, thats really hurts. So like, i have just a few months left to hang out with him, yes, don’t mention it, i will be crying like hell when he’s gone. :’(  but anyway, thats for his own good, and i accept it and always pray the best for him. J

having plenty of leisure time, i stumbled on my friend's blog, Abid. i read it and i was suprised and blessed that i am ranked by him as one of the top 10 bloggers award. yeay me!(okay, itu over). so it was written there that i have to rank my own top 10 bloggers. so, here it goes :

1. ajikhahaha.blogspot.com

2. mohdmuzamel.blogspot.com

3. dylakamil.blogspot.com

4.abahslittlegirl.blogspot.com

5. atenabella.blogspot.com/

6. bashijauburuk.blogspot.com

7. generasiremaja.blogspot.com

8 .tedywok.blogspot.com

9. puisitepijalan.blogspot.com

10. stixxfixx.blogspot.com/

congrats! okay, just some random ranks. no offence. :)

observe and learn

When i was studying Sociology in Education last semester, i keep on wondering why people like to, i mean, willing to live in a life of inequality. It is not fair when you see some people eat 6 times a day and some just eat once a day or never eats at all (except for some strange unthankful people who likes to not eat their meal, which they call it so-called diet). It is not because of diet or anything but the thing is, they cant afford to have more than a meal in a day. It is not fair to see some people wear Prada and some wear just a bunch of collected cloth that they found in the trash. It is not fair that some live in a palace or mansion and some just live without a home. Why does this inequality even exist? Like what i’ve learned about India on their social stratification, they have this class system in which they cant “touch” other classes except for their own. Come to think of it, if you are a responsible person, and really want your country to be more successful and modernized, you should just forget about the class system thingy and help among yourselves so that all of the citizens in the country will have a better life all together.

But actually, without inequality, it is not a life. Imagine if all human beings have the same, equal occupation, same, equal standards of life, and same everything, there will be no competition and life is no fun anymore. If everyone work as an engineer, then who is going to be a doctor? A teacher? A lawyer? an entertainer? If our standards of life are equal, then all the prices of everything in this world will be equal too and plus, there will be no variety in life. Same houses, same culture in every country, same food every day, boy, life is plain though.

So, yes, i agree that inequality in society shouldn’t exist but, it just exist without anyone demands for it, am i right?

okay, its just some crazy thoughts, no offence. and anyway, there mightbe some wrongs here and there but, nvm, i dont really like sociology. LOL

talk about life

parents didn't call since the day they went out of town. DISAPPOINTED

final exam's over. HAPPY

Ajik came to celebrate. EFFINGLY HAPPY

mum called. PLEASANTLY HAPPY

went busking with him and Fatin. GLAD

had a lil cooked-meal by Ajik's mum. HAPPY

begged for an apology to a friend. NOT FORGIVEN

parents aren't home. SAD

Ajik went home. SAD

called Ayuni. HAPPY

phone went missing. TERRIBLY SAD.

JAP. FOUND IT!!!!!! *Jiher was on the phone and heard the great news and just typed it out!*

okay. rasa macam dah lama tak tengok wayang. seriously. Britney Spears ckp kat twitter dye yang cite Alice in wonderland best. :)

p/s: jalan sebelah tak nak tegur aku. okay, memang salah aku hari tu tapi bukan aku tak mintak maaf. sorry again korg :'(

vision 2020 and its challenges

- to be a united nation and tolerant society

- to be a citizen who strong in religious and spiritual values

- to be a scientific and progressive society

- to be an economically just society

- to be a prosperous society

challenges

- establishing a united Malaysian nation

- creating a psychologically liberated society

- fostering and developing a mature democratic society

- establishing a fully moral and ethically society 

- establishing a mature liberal and tolerant society

- establishing a fully caring society

- ensuring an economically just society

- establishing a prosperous society. 

banyak kali aku baca benda ni tapi tak jugak hafal hafal. esok nak exam ni, nape tak boleh masuk? maybe sebab aku tak yakin yang malaysia boleh capai sume ni pada tahun 2020 nanti. frustrated.

thoughts

FRUSTRATED.

dengan Malaysia

FRUSTRATED.

dengan Malaysians.

FRUSTRATED.

dengan hypocrisy.

 

FRUSTRATED.

dengan inequality.

FRUSTRATED.

dengan lies.

FRUSTRATED.

dengan ownself.

^{just one question,} WHY??

THANK YOU.

.fullstop.

the spirit of the dead

tak tahu lah kenapa tapi Malaysia sekarang ni, dalam industri perfileman, selalu sangat buat cerita cerita hantu. niyang rapik lah, saka lah, momok lah, jangan tegur lah, macam macam lah. kenapa? diorang takde idea ke nak buat cerita cerita yang menarik minat penonton? ketandusan idea?
tak tahu lah sape yang nak ditujukan, tapi, hantu ni sume adalah perkara tahyul. memang lah manusia kene percaya yang benda benda ghaib ini wujud, tapi takperlu lah korang nak berlakon jadi diorang dan cerita pasal orang yang dah mati. pasal orang yang tgah hidup ni macam mane?
lagi satu, hantu ni sume sebenarnye taknak tonjolkan diri. seganlah katekan.tapi bile diorang tengok kawan kawan diorang ramai berlakon kat tv, kat wayang sume, diorang jadi excited, dan mule lah keluar si hantu hantu ni secara meliar. kita nak salah kan sape?
cerita cerita hantu yang belambakkat malaysia ni sangat berpengaruh besar pada budak budak dan saya sendiri. budak budak sampai kan nak pegi toilet pon takot, terbayang kan hantu hantu yang mereka tengok kat tv sebelum itu. tahu lah kan, imaginasi kanak kanak. saya pon takot nak tgok tv sorang sorang. asal bukak je tv, ade iklan hantu. pastu ade hantu keluar. nak nye aku duduk rumah sorang sorang tibe2 hantu keluar kat tv tu camne? aishh.

cube lah buat cerita yang ade moral values sikit. tak abes abes cerita hantu, cerita drama sedih sedih nangis nangis, and cerita AF. adoiii. semak pale otak aku.

saya sangat suka orang yang tengok cerita spongebob. at least, spongebob takde hantu hantu niyang rapik ke momok ke pontianak ke kuntilanak ke, takde drama nanges nanges mintak simpati, takde undi undi. hanya sponge, yang memakai seluar kotak. :)

the LES' and GAs, the NYAs and the TOMs

tengah tengah makan kat warung kat ampangan, tibe tibe ternampak ade sorang awek cun gila ni. tinggi dah macam model lah. muka dah macam artis, dressup memang hot lah. skali bf dye adelah "she-male". aku memandang dan terus memandang. tiada ape yang mengganggu kecuali kucing yg asyek2 nak dekat dgn aku dan senyuman ajik (haha). aku terpikir. pelik betul ade orang yg suka pada sex yang sama. yelah, dye ade benda yg same dgn partner dye, best ke?

aku teringat cerita kawan kawan aku. ade yg tinggalkan bf sebab nk couple dgn pengkid, ade yg frust dengan laki then couple dgn pengkid, ade jugak laki yang nak kat laki. aishhhhh. TAK BOLEH NAK DIBAYANGKAN!

kadang kadang aku cuba membayangkan diri aku dengan perempuan, SANGAT JANGGAL OKAY! pegang-pegang tangan, ade perasaan, yucks! ni kan lagi laki dgn laki. damn. pastu ade pulak pasang niat nak KAHWIN. perempuan nk kawen dgn perempuan, laki nak kawen dgn laki. yg perempuan, ntah macam mane ntah nak dapat anak, bak kate ajik, dye takot k***k tu. haha.

lagi tak bole blah, perempuan yg transform jadi laki, laki yg transform jadi perempuan. ingt ni dunia transformers ke?
aritu aku pergi jalan jalan dan singgah kat satu kedai handphone ni. mak aku kate dye perempuan. aku tgok buah dada dye kecik je, suara garau macam laki. mak aku dgn yakinnya cakap dye perempuan. aku pon mengangguk. tapi ada halkum sume, suara garau sume, tangan pon dah macam lelaki, tangan pon lemah lembut semacam je. patutkah aku percaya tu perempuan?

one word....

CONFUSING.

ade jugak cerita poyo seorang minah pengkid ni, eh i mean, mamat pengkid ni.
konon lah kan ade lah sorang awek cun ni tgah tunggu si mamat pengkid ni kat satu tempat makan ni. pastu datang lah seorang jantan tulen cam nak usya2 la awek ni kan. setelah lebih kurang 10 minit proses mengusya,  datang lah mamat pengkid ni. terus dye nak belasah pulak jantan tulen tu. jantan tulen tu pon tumbuk lah minah pengkid tu, eh i mean, mamat pengkid tu. and shouted " kau tu dah lah perempuan, nak bajet laki plak, tunjuk batang lah wey!" sume orang kat kedai makan tu pandang. mamat pengkid tu dah malu, terus chow dgn awek cun dye tu.
adoi. nak bajet kuat pulak. konon protective lah. boleh je nak jadi protective, tapi tak perlu lah nak tuka gender kau. sex kau dah memang perempuan kan, kenapa nak tuka gender jantan pulak?

Allah da cipta kite dengan sempurna, kenapa nak ubah?

kids

its funny to watch kids playing hide and seek, when none of them knows how to count 1 to 10. and all of them are counting, and seeking. so who's gonna be the hiders and the seeker?

its funny when the kids, with tiny, tiny legs, and very, very big pampers, running. it seems like the pampers are running, not the kid itself.

its funny to see kids suddenly laugh out loud when they see something that is not funny. and clapping their hands with a rhythm.

its funny to see them communicate with each other with language that we dont really understand and how they can agree and disagree and then, laugh.

kids are brilliant. but the question is, are they that brilliant when they grow up later? coz most of the grown ups dont use their brains to think, and somehow, they are slightly stupid.
will the brilliantness remain unchanged?

to a friend

Come to think of it, am i the one who started it? Am i the one who ruined everything? Coz you don’t seem to care nor notice me ever since the thing started. have i chose the wrong decision? Am i in the wrong path?

I do not know what’s in your mind now but all i know is you are so different from who you were before. And i keep on wondering what I have done that makes you act like this. You said you were okay but you’re not. You were caught lying to us, is that what makes you hate me now?

As for now, i just wish and hoping that everything will be alright. Frankly speaking, i miss you soo bad.  But i couldn’t say it to you coz you don’t seem to miss me. And yes, i miss all the laughter that we shared together, well, its a long long time ago. Till i cant remember when was the last time we did that. The jealousy started to cross my heart when i saw you missing somebody else, which was not me. Sorry but yes i am a bit jealous of that.

Sometimes i fall, and i wish that it was you are the one that hold my hands, but that was just a dream. So, as for now, you cant blame me for having someone else in my life, some more friends and one special guy in my heart. But still, i wish we could turn back the time and pause at the moments that we’re spending our selves together. I miss our yesterdays and i miss you..

1,2,3

its been a long time since i haven't update my blog. 

yeah. lots of things to do rather than typing unspoken words to this place. 

been very busy with mid terms, and friends and life and love.

but there are some things that i want to say to those who i think need to buy a very very big mirror.

stop backstabbing your friend. you know how it hurt when someone back stabbing you. 

and by wearing your mask, doesn't mean that i cant see your real face that you're hiding from her. i could see it with my bare naked eyes.

and stop hurting my friends. leaving them is hurt enough, but cheating and lying? its too much. screw you! dont you have any idea on what you say about her might affect her the rest of her life? dont you think what you did to him is too much? and dont you think you're too obsessed with your new life and that you've forgot who's been by your side all the time?

and yeah, the sudden change of you has made me think of something. you've not moved on. i know. i'm a girl too. 

and to those who keep on fighting about such a fucking silly things, just snap out of it. its ridiculous. you might think that you did the right thing but, come to think of it, who's there when you need someone? and you just want to end your relationship just like that? nonsense.

and you hate me coz i spilled the whole truth? what? you're scared? well, i'm not. go and tell others your lies. they would believe you, but i wont. and someday, you'll know how far you've been. 

i know im no perfect, but at least i'm trying. 

counting the days

exam exam exam.

tired of it already!!!

so anyway, 3 papers had passed today.
frankly, philosophy of education was really really tough. i've been struggling very very hard for the paper, been reading it for 3 days, and all i can answer is 2/5 of it! well, maybe its because i have to read like, what, 80 pages for 2 chapters. hows that? but anyway, sorry Prof J.

the next paper was sociology. another tough subject. luckily the lecturer gave us a lil tips on the exam, so we didnt have to read all of the chapters in the big book. but the exam was tiring because i have to write 5 essays and the marks are irrelevant! urghh. thanks anyway.

then on the same day of sociology, i had this critical thinking subject, at noon. mengantok lah! but, it was okay lah. not that tough as i thought it was but not as easy as creative thinking that i took last semester. :)

next will be, counselling and guidance IN THE MORNING, and presentation skills ON SATURDAY!
bosan betul bila exam hari sabtu. :(

ouh and one more thing yang best pasal mid sem dekat MSU ni is that, no hols. not even a day, well maybe they think there is, SUNDAY.

and to my beloved haziq hanif, stay strong. i'll always be with you. see you next week okay ;)

explain

again, i feel annoyed with the questions, what what and what do you learn from philosophy?
urghh. okay here's the thing. in my opinion, i dont learn anything from it. yes. because i dont apply any of those stuff that are written in the book instead, i try to understand it and say "oh, really?"
its just a matter of gaining knowledge without finding the way to apply it.
basically, from the book, that i've read reluctantly, its all about idealism and realism and how it relates to education and teaching. *read it so you'll know how gila i am when reading this*
these things are totally different. idealism is subjective and it is intangible. idealists believed that ideas are the pure truth because ideas do not change, but materials are changing. and thennnn, the fucking part is, we can get to know these people like Plato, Socrates, Augustine and duhh, memang aku tanak kenal korang lah but i am forced to get to know them. i hate to learn about the dead.
and realism is the opposite of it. it is objective and measurable and tangible. and frankly, this is all iknow because i haven't study a thing for this! F**k! and more people to be noticed such as Aquinas, Aristotle, Bacon and who ever they are.

so get the idea ? philosophy is as easy as cendol. trust me.
exam will be on wednesday and thre'll be 2 essays. ^&^&(*)*(&%$%

papers and pens

it has been a few months for this semester and now, its mid semester's test. goshhh! i think i know nothing at all. it feels like, i've learned nothing through out this semster. 

i got 5 subjects to be studied. and these subject are pretty lame. 

-critical thinking

-counselling and guidance

-presentation skills

-philosophy of education

-sociology

*i'm listing it out so that people would STOP asking me what subjects am i taking this semester.*

so frankly speaking, my favourite has always been literature, but because there's no more literature class*which makes me feel sooo upset about it* the most acceptable and kind,my favourite subject is, presentation skills. 

eventhough, the assignments has nothing to do but only presentation and presentation and more presentations, but the class was kinda fun. seriously.

and the least favourite subject of all times is counselling and guidance.

imagine: jiher as a counsellor. 

geli bai!!

this subject was the most boring subject i've even took. sumpah tanak blaja lagi dah lepas sem ni!

the toughest subject is philosophy of education. well, falsafah kan, susah la. the sentences are hardly understandable because it uses a philosophical-english-language, in which, i have to read it like 10 times to understand JUST A SENTENCE, not to mention i have to read like 30 times to AT LEAST remember what it says. nak harapkan aku hafal setiap sentence? JANGAN HARAP.

so, the test will starts on 12th january 2010. wish me all the best ;)

guys

disebabkan aku sangat kebosanan tahap gajah, youtube dah habis aku explore sume, facebook pulak tak ramai online, sume celebrate new year lah katekan, skype pulak tak rajin nak skype orang lain selain ajik, myspace memang jangan haraplah rajin nak bukak. so, aku pon google lah gambar bf bf aku sume kan. teringat kisahkisah lama;

chuck comeau, Simple Plan.

cinta pertama aku adalah beliau. well, aku sangat teruja melihat beliau mengetuk dram, dan dye sangat amazed tengok aku terpegun tengok dye. so dye pon jatuh cinta dengan aku. aku mula mula agak jual mahal tapi disebabkan oleh kesweetan dye, aku pon cair lah. tapi tak lama pon dengan dye.1 tahun je. haritu kan band dye, ade datang Malaysia a few times kan, aku gaduh dengan dye time tu. yelah, mane tak nye, dye kat sana langsung tak ingat nak contact aku. tu yang aku mintak putus tu. sorry eh chuck.

Billy Martin, Good Charlotte.

cinta kedua. beralih kepada pemetik tali gitar pulak. aku mula jatuh cinta dengan dye ni masa firstfirst lagu dye keluar. tak ingat apa sebab aku dah taknak ingat dye dah! dye curang dengan aku. boleh tak macam tu? ini jiher ok. kau da curang memang aku benci kau dan band kau lah wey. stop lah cakap pasal kau!. weekkkkk!!!

Nate Mendel, Foo Fighters.

cinta ketiga. kali ini disebabkan aku dah patah hati dengan seorang pengetuk dram, aku beralih taste pulak ke pemain tali tebal. kali pertama terpandang wajah Nate ni, aku cair. dengan gaya dye lagi, memang terbaik. aku ingat aku syok sendiri, rupenye tak. aritu, a few years back lah kan, zamanzaman kegemilangan Tom dulu, tibetibe aku dapat msg dari Nate Mendel. aku ingat cam orang nak guraugurau je kan, pastu aku pon bacelah. then dye tulis camni: actually Jiher, i've been stalking you since forever. i like you.

aku pengsan macam nak gila kot. 14 kali aku sing in sign out myspace. rupenye betul lah tu dye. then kitorang pon start lah web cam sume kan. wey, romantik wey dye. tapi tak lama pon. tautau aku tibetibe tak sayang dye. maaf Nate, tak sengaja tinggalkan you.

Guy Berryman, Audioslaves

tak putus asa dengan cinta. aku mencuba lagi dengan pemain tali tebal jugak. tapi aku kurang mencintai beliau, sebab aku malas nak layan beliau yang sangat romantik. urghhh. ayat aku je lebih. ntahntah tipu je tu. aku sebenarnye tertarik dengan gitar bass dye yang ini, so aku macam nk try pegangpegang then dye jatuh cinta kat aku. adoi. nak buat camne, trime jela. tapi, lepas 3 bulan, aku break lah. tak tahan.

Jia O'connor, Parkway Drive

aku dah mula tak suke pada mamatmamat bunga jadi aku beralih genre ke metalcore. whoahh. aku mula tertarik dengan beliau dikala beliau mendendangkan lagu Picture,Perfect, Pathetic. sangat kagum. aku pon contactcontact beliau di myspace, dan dia mintak couple, so aku pon macam tak caya lah kan. then dye datang Malaysia aritu, aku macam what?? apsal tak bagitau i awalawal??? i dapat flyer tu sehari selepas u perform tau takkkk? u ni memang. then kitorang cam discussdiscuss, then dah ok. tapi still dingin lah. disitu lah aku mula pasang scandal dengan Luke Pritchard. tapi skarang aku dengan Jia dah over.kitorang dah bersama selama 2tahun. dye pon dah ade orang lain. huh.

Luke Pritchard, The Kooks.

satu satu nya pengguna microfon yang aku suka. dye sangat sexy dengan gitar acoustic ditangan, dan british sleng dye sangat sangat mencairkan hati aku. tapi malangnya, kami hanya sempat berscandal sahaja.

Mohd Haziq Hanif Hidzir.

dan sekarang aku stuck dekat mamat ni. orang panggil dye ajik. dye main guitar tapi dye nampak lagi ensem dan tampan lagi kacak bila bermain guitar bertali tebal especially bila main lagu Molly's Chamber by Kings Of Leon. dye ni taklah romantik sangat, sedangsedang je, just as i want, suamsuam sejuk, sweet lak tu. wewittt. lagi ensem bile dye ni jenis yang pendiam, memang menarik hati aku lah kan. rockstar terakhir ni lah yang paling aku sayang, insyaallah sampai bilabila. i love you, Haziq <3


p/s: ini bukan rekaan semata-mata ok. ahahha

big screens

*aku tatau nape aku sangat suka nak update blog*

kali ini aku tanak cite pasal lalat kat Marrybrown aku pegi td, kasut murah RM30 bole dapat 2 pairs, dan juga aku beli beg baru hari ini. tapi aku nak cite pasal televisyen.
yeah. selalunya ramai orang suke tengok tv ni. bukan stakat tengok, merenung pon ade. kadangkadang, sedang tido pon boleh tengok tv. hebathebat. *clapclap*
orang slalu cakap,

orang 1: eh jiher, tanak tengok tv ke?
jiher: takpelah. baik aku main guitar.
orang 2: eh jiher, tanak tgok ke cite ni?
jiher: eh takpelah, baik aku makan. kenyang sikit
orang 3: jiher. cite nur kasih ni best douh. tengok ar.
jiher: takpelah. baik aku berkasihkasih dgn bf aku kat ym.
orang 4: jiher, cite ni gila gempak douh.
jiher: oh yeke, nnt kau cite kat aku. aku nak tido.

memang aku akan mengelak. tapi kadangkadang kalau dah tahap kebosanan gila tu, memang aku akan tengok tv lah kan. *kalau aku tengok tv tu means aku gila bosan lah tu*
sebabsebab aku tak suke tengok tv antaranya adalah kerana;

1. aku suke tengok iklan tapi orang lain taksuke. bile suspen je, mesti iklan kan? tapi aku suke tengok ,menarik perhatian.mak aku cakap, masa aku kecikkecik dulu, aku suruh mak aku tape iklan banyakbanyak and aku tengok lah setiap hari. *bodo gila* bile iklan je orang lain mesti nak tuka channel. tu yang aku menyirap tu. dah elokelok mood utk tengok cite gossip girl, tibetibe tuka cite sembilu kasih pulak. adoy. potong stim lah. pastu mesti stuck lama sampaiiii lah cite tu habis. terus aku chow.

2. iklan lama sangat. aku memang suka iklan, tapi bila dah lama sangat, aku pon tak ingt tadi aku tengok cite ape. eh, td cite pasal ape eh? langsung tak ingt. pelupa aku ni. bile tak ingt, aku malas lah nak recall balik. bukan nya penting pon. then aku pon lost dalam cite tu. terus tatau apeape. baik tayah tengok. tol?

3. cite kat tv slalu potongpotong. aku tak suke lah kalau cite potongpotong ni kan. da elokelok da si Mary Jane dlm cite spiderman tu tengah kissing, tibetibe tuka lak scene letupletup. saje je diorg ni. nak suruh orang download cite tu tengok sendiri kat dalam umah. tapi konon buat kempen hapuskan cetak rompak. ntah pape.

4. aku senang terpengaruh. bila aku tengok tv, dan aku akan fikir dan fikir dan fikir pasal cite tu sampai lah malam. pastuuu nanti aku mimpi pasal cite tu. tak pasalpasal aku bangunbangun tido aku ingt aku ni kawan Blair dalam cite Gossip Girl tu. ishish. tak patut.nasib baik aku sedar. kalau tibetibe aku cam nak kuar umah dengan Blair yg tak wujud tu camne? scaryy~

5. pasal iklan lagi. slalu ade iklan pasal citecite antu. aku benci douh. aku tak suke scaryscary ni. kalau aku tertengok iklan tu malamalam camne? sorangsorang cmne? tak ke tak tido malam aku dibuat nye? antu je. sikitsikit antu. bangga tau diorg asyek kuar tv je. issh. aku pon tak penah kuar tv eh. jeles. tapi aku tak suke douh ade iklaniklan cite antu ni. eeee. tutuplah tv tu!

6. bosan lah tengok tv. tengok wayang lagi best. bunyi gempak je. wayang takde iklan tau. sejuk je. besar lak tu. eee. tv bosan. kalau tengok kat wayang aku tatau nape aku akan cepat lupe pasal cite tu. so taklah terbawakbawak dalam mimpi ;)

sebenarnye ada bnyk lagi, tapi aku lupe douh.*dah tua lah katekan*

stars, moon and the sun

sometimes, these thoughts came up from my mind
how i wish i dont have friends
how i wish i dont have a family
how i wish that i am alone
how i wish i am not me
but the wishes can never be true. i need 'em but it put guiltiness to my face.
i'm stuck in the middle,
choices that can't be choose.
reasons that aren't reasonable.
excuses that aren't meant to be excused.
i'm in the middle of myself, of being myself.
why can't anyone read my mind?
why can't anyone feel what i feel?
oh yeah, i'm always the one who doesn't understand when i'm trying really hard to fix up your tangled thoughts.
then who's gonna fix up mine?
i dont have the strenght to live with out 'em, but somehow, i get the strength myself as they keep on weakening me.
i'm trying to be strong
so, i put up some fake smiles.
fake.
while i am emitting crystal water from my eyes
and the wounds.
it keeps on hurting and hurting and hurting.
no, none of you are wrong. don't blame yourself.
and don't blame me too.
i cant stand of holding this guilt and sorrows by myself.
though now that i am much happy, not like i was
but im still trapped in the middle.
of stars, moon and the sun.

gone crazy again

annoyingly, facebook has turned to be bored.
suprisingly, ajik was out for smoking.
stupidly, i didn't bring my assignments back home.
bongokly, i dont have a guitar to bring back home.
lazyly, i did not want to think about anything.
huh.
no one's in my house. online pon bosan.

but this thing came up from my mind. i went to the kitchen and see what can i have to serve my boredom.

searchingsearchingsearching......

oh, ada aiskrim! oh, dan ayam goreng yang crispy lagi spicy! oh, ada chicken finger yang pedass!

this has came out from my thoughts. heat up some oil and goreng lah ayam dan chicken fingers tu.
haus pulak. nak minum apa?
sirap. susu. air.
bandung jelah! *myra telah mempengaruhi aku untuk minum bandung*

after fried some of the chicken and chicken fingers, *so bole panggil chickens lah kan?* i put em in one plate.
oh, how about ice cream? yumyum. letak some ice-cream on the top of those fried chickens. tak pernah dibuat orang! the ice cream melted on the top of the fried chickens!! gila best. i dont need sauce. sebab those chicken dah memang pedas gila. nasib baik ada ice cream. so kurang pedas. but still, it got me to have the hissssssing sound.
oh, air bandung tu, aku kasi extreme. bosan punya pasal kan. when the drink was almost finished, i put soy sauce dalam tu. gila kan? then minum. ini yang masin punye tau! oh, sedap wey!! cube try!. tapi jgn letak bnyk sgt. nanti masin sangat pulak.

anyway, malam tu ade orang nak belanje makan satayyy. yipeee!! ajik picked us up, me and ayu, and we went to this satay kajang restaurant called Haji Samsuri. ayu suruh aku dan ajik order so yes we thought of ordering 5 arnab, 5 kambing, 5 rusa, 5 daging, 5 perut and 10 ayam. but arnab dan kambing takde. hell. baru nak rasa. so we ordered 10 rusa, 5 perut and 10 ayam. yumyum. rusa sangatsangat liat. that was the first time that i tasted rusa. tapi sedapppp. then panjang datang. panjang was shocked and almost didn't noticed the new me :)
jap. is there something between the both of you?? aha. whatever
so anyway, on our way back, i saw my ex-bandmates at Harry Tom Yam. ohh, i really really misss you guys. seriously. and i said hi to em and they were shocked too. whatever. wish to see em again and hope to have some time to lepaklepak with em.

that night was the last night i hanging out wish him coz i will not be seeing him later on.*well i hope its not*
i miss you already, love. :(

meowww

disebabkan permintaan ramai,*padahal tak lah ramai sangat* aku pon tulis lah benda yang aku paling tak suke, eh, bukan benda, binatang.

KUCING.

kau tengok tu. pemakai topeng binatang paling berjaya dalam dunia. korang tak tahu ke yang korang ni tertipu sebenarnya? kucing hipokrit ni? ramai yang tak tahu rahsia sebenar mereka. secara diam, mereka banyak simpan rahsia mereka dalam fail negara kucing. mereka adalah penyimpan rahsia paling bagus dalam dunia sebab orang amerika pon tak tahu, tiada saintis pon yang tahu.

sebelum aku reveal secret diorg ni, biar aku bagitau dulu kenapa aku tak suka kucing;

diorg ni bajet comel. serious. diorg sebenarnya tak comel. sebab aku penah nampak diorg tak comel. eh, ape pulak. diorg memang sentiasa tak comel. sebab ape tau, sebab bile dye nampak manusia je, terus dye cam berlagak comel, nak buat mate comel lah, gesekgesek kat kaki lah, konon nanti manusia akan cakap "alalalala, comel nye dye ni" pastu dalam hati dye bangga gila babi. tu yang ekor manjang je kembang tu. sebab org dok pujipuji dye. dalam dunia kucing, takde kucing yang puji kucing, sebab mereka tak comel pada asalnya. huh

diorang ni suke buat seks tengahtengah jalan. tau lah kau binatang, takde orang kesah. tapi anjing pon tau kot nak buat kat tempat yang tersorok sikit. kau sebolehboleh nak tunjuk kat orang kau punya skills. tapi yang dapat nama, anjing jugak *doggy style* dye tak bongkak pon. huh. ingt bile orang tengok kau tu orang nak rakam pastu post kat pornsites lah? tak layak tak layak

diorang ni suke mintak makanan orang. cube lah mintak makanan anjing ke, lipas ke, burung ke, ni makanan orang gak kau mintak. hello, kitorang kerje tau untuk dapatkan duit nak beli makanan. kau ape tau, mintak je tau. anjing pon tahu tau carik makanan sendiri. kau je bajet manja. eeee. tak suke aku. kau mane bole makan ayam sedapsedap tu, ikan sedapsedap tu, kepci ke. eh, aku ade member yang bagi kucing dye KFC douh. macam gila tak fair. aku ni kau tak bagi, tapi kucing tu kau bagi. ini dah dikira sebagai diskriminasi terhadap manusia ni.

diorg ni bila orang amik gambar, asalkan nampak je camera ,mula lah nak posing comel. konon orang akan amik gambar kau bnykbnyk lah? eeee. kau ni berjaya menipu ramai orang, tapi bukan aku ok. aku tak mudah tertipu oleh kucing.

diorg ni suke menggatal kat bf aku! mane bole. nak jilatjilat bf aku. eh, aku pon tak jilat dye tau. kau lak nak mengadangada nak tido dengan dye pulak. miang nye kau! sebok lah kat bf orang. carik lah bf kucing. yuckssss

so, the real truth is, sebenarnya, kucing yang anda sayangi itu, berupa sebegini.

..............................

ini ke yang korang sayang sangat tu? huh.

aku tak panggil mereka kucing, tapi ada nama sendiri.

babi.

p/s: maaf ya kepada semua pecinta kucing. LOL

psttt..

maaf.

 saya bukan orang macam itu. saya bukan orang sebegitu. saya akan senyum tapi saya akan elakkan diri. saya takkan cakap taknak, tapi saya takkan mahu cuba. saya takkan bersuara untuk terima tapi saya akan mengalih pandangan. saya takkan sakitkan hati awak, jika awak tidak paksa saya. bukan saya terima tapi saya memahami. dan tak perlu untuk awak menarik saya sekali.

maaf sekali lagi.

saya tak nak.

no no no.

pendirian diri perlu dipegang. maaf kerana kecewakan awak. tapi saya tak mahu kecewakan diri sendiri.

maaf rakan.

wordswordswords, william wordsworth

mencarut.semua orang mesti pernah cakap benda carutcarut ni. babi, pukimak, lancau, sial, siot, pantat, setan, anjing, bodoh, bangang, bongek, biol, dan bermacammacam lagi perkataannya. kenapa orang suka mencarut? sukasuka? tengah marah? melatah? or pengaruh rakan? kadangkadang barang terjatuh pon nak " oh babi kau" tak pon " oh makcik sial" takpasalpasal kena babi dengan sial. tak pon bila ternampak kucing je " wey babi!" padahal dye dah tau yang binatang tu kucing, bukan babi. tapi disebab kan takut sangat sampai termelatah pon mencarut. kadangkadang atas jalan raya didalam kereta tibetibe kereta kancil menyelit. kite pon cakap " babi punye kancil. sial betul" tak pasalpasal kancil jadi babi. senang je nak buat magik.
elok ke tak mencarut ni? macam mana orang bole mencarut? menurut kajian, pelajarpelajar di Malaysia kini yang gemar mencarut adalah disebabkan oleh pengaruh rakan. bukan hanya rakan sebaya malah rakanrakan tak sama baya dan abang kakak dan makcik pakcik dan atuk nenek dan ibu bapa. mane taknya, nenek kita pon kadangkadang kalau melatah memang tanak panjang lagi lah dan mesti ade terselit sikitsikit carutan nya. abang kakak lagi lah jangan cakap " kau ni bangang lah adek. aku cakap cm ni pon kau tak paham." kene skali bangang. kesian adik tu. sepatutnya mencarut ni adalah macam sesuai untuk marahmarah ke ape an, baru orang macam tau dye ni marah ke tak an. tapi skarang dah jadi macam habit.  " aku happy lah sial!" tak pon " aku tak suke doh" so macam ending perkataan tu macam ade je perkataan carutan. pelik tetapi benar. aku pon cakap sume benda ni. cakap lah ape yang aku tak penah cakap. sume aku pernah. skali mencarut memang berpakej ar. kalau melatah tu " oh babi pukimak sial" skali tiga wey. bukan senang nak dapat pakej ni. and setiap ayat mesti macam " panas lah sial. gila babi ar panas" tak pon. " babi douh. aku lapa sial"  tak pon "babi la kau ni ajik. ensem gila lah sial!" pastu nanti orang akan cakap "mana babi? mana?mana?" dan aku pon cakap balik "babi la wey" babi lagi. femes kan babi. haha.
tapi, aku nak berusaha untuk mengurangkan habit tak elok dan tak sopan ni. ish ish. tapi dalam blog pon mencarut, inikan katakata yang kuar kat mulut secara spontan. hmmmmmm. takpe i'll try my best. selamat tinggal carutan!! farewell~