kids

its funny to watch kids playing hide and seek, when none of them knows how to count 1 to 10. and all of them are counting, and seeking. so who's gonna be the hiders and the seeker?

its funny when the kids, with tiny, tiny legs, and very, very big pampers, running. it seems like the pampers are running, not the kid itself.

its funny to see kids suddenly laugh out loud when they see something that is not funny. and clapping their hands with a rhythm.

its funny to see them communicate with each other with language that we dont really understand and how they can agree and disagree and then, laugh.

kids are brilliant. but the question is, are they that brilliant when they grow up later? coz most of the grown ups dont use their brains to think, and somehow, they are slightly stupid.
will the brilliantness remain unchanged?

come and go

setiap yang datang mesti akan pergi
dan kite sebagai manusia memang takkan hidup lama, mesti akan mati. 
cube lah lari macamana pon, rentas lautan api, panjat gunung yg 10 kali ganda lagi tinggi dar everest, jadi macam hollow man bagaimana skali pon, malaikat tetap akan cabut nyawa kite. 

ayah chot, pakcik saya, meninggal hari ini

sedikit sebak di dada,

tapi nak buat macamana, Allah lebih sayangkan beliau. dah tiba ajalnya untuk pergi. kite tak bole nak halang kehendak Tuhan.

SEMOGA ROHNYA DICUCURI RAHMAT.

AL-FATIHAH...

maaf tidak dapat menziarahi kerana exam ;(

holiday inn

Seperti yang tidak di plan kan, selepas tamat kelas pada hari khamis, a few hours later, aku di jemput pulang oleh bapaku yang terchenta kerana kami sekeluarga akan pergi bercuti ke pantai Desaru, Kota Tinggi, Johor. Ohh, terlepas untuk melepak dengan ajik :( tak mengapa. Malam itu, aku dipujuk untuk bergembira dengan memberi aku makanan yang sedapsedap(eh, macam tiru ayat ajik).

Nasib baik kenyang. Keesokkan paginya, bergerak menuju ke Johor Bharu, pakcik saya tibetibe jatuh sakit. Kesian dye. Petang tu selepas merayaurayau kejap di JB, kami pon menuju ke Desaru. 4 jam perjalanan sebab jalan sangatsangat jam. Mane tak nye, jalan dah la satu lane je, and polis buat roadblock 3 kali. Aku panas betul dengan polis ni. Pilih lah tempat yang strategic sikit boleh tak? Urghh. Sampai dalam pukul 10 macam tu. Sampai sahaja di rumah, orang yang pegang kunci rumah tersebut tiada.

Fuck!

Cari dan mencari dan mencari hotel untuk menginap.

Tiada yang kosong. Sume sudah ada orang menginap. Lastlast, nasib baik bawak khemah, so, rent tempat nak camping dan pasang khemah ni. *so nottt what i expected to happen*
Takde rezeki aku nak skype dengan ajik malam tu :(

tapi best lah sebab camping dekat tepi laut, walaupun tak berapa cantik laut tu, tapi romantic wey. Wewittt.
Pagipagi lagi orang ramai dah dating nak main air kat tepi laut. Tak ramai yang nak mandi, sebab takot, ombak dye besar sangat. Den pun cuak ha.

Nasib baik tengahari tu orang tu dah sampai dan beri kami kunci rumah tersebut.
Malam tu adelah yang terbaik. Bbq wey! Nak kata ramai, tak lah ramai, dalam 20+ orang camtu. Makanan jangan cakap lah. Terlampau banyak. Dengan rendang lah, botok-botok lah, makanan bbq macam ayam, ikan pari, ikan jaket, sotong, udang, dan macammacam lagi. Slek takde lamb je. Ish.

Yang paling best malam tu adelah, kami ber-bbq diluar rumah dibumbungi oleh bintangbintang yang sangat cantik, bulan pulak mengambang penuh, dengan laut kelihatan di depan, memang indah pemandangan. wuuu
tapi nyamuk jahat. men gigitgigit pulak.*gedik macam sial wey. hahaha*

Sangat kenyang aku malam tu. The guys tak tidur dalam rumah sebab perempuan ramai sangat. So diorg camping je kat tepi laut. Nak join, tapi aku sorang je pompuan yang nk join, so tak dibenarkan. Hmm.

Online kat tepi laut lagi best okay! Cepat je. Kat dalam rumah line takde. Broadband macam sial. Susah nak skype. *skype lagiii*
Esok, off to Shah Alam :)


p/s: takde gambar untuk di upload sebab handphone aku dah semakin canggih, gambar takbole da nak ditangkap T.T

Last

last post. 

bukan bermaksud last post aku akan menaip blog, tapi last post pada tahun 2009. why? coz 2010 is coming tomorrow. tak tahu kenapa tapi orang selalu sangat excited nak celebrate new year. bila new year nak dekat je mulalah soalan sama je kuar. "new year kat mana, Jiher?" tak pon " this year katne wey?" tak pon "kau celebrate new year katne this year, Jiher?" aku hanya mampu pandang balik, dan senyum.

frankly, aku tak pernah celebrate new year. ye, saya memang sangat kuno dan tak up-to-date, tapi, perlu ke nak celebrate? satu kemestian kah? selama 18 tahun aku hidup, belum pernah lagi aku celebrate new year bersama rakanrakan, mahupon family.

ape yang aku slalu buat time new year?

ntah. aku pon tak ingat. makan kot? tido kot? on9? entahlah. yang penting sume tu tak penting.

aku tanya membermember aku yang celebrate new year, "korang celebrate slalu kat mana?"

then mereka cakap, "tak tahu lagi lah, go to private parties, getting high, you know, all those stuff" and ade jugak yg cakap, " lepak somewhere, getting high, and counting down the time"

oh really? macam gila lame ok!

yang aku tau, kot, new year mesti ade fireworks kat KL, then sume orang yg couplecouple datang dan tengok sambil cakap kat awek dye "romantik kan sayang?" in which aku tak rase benda tu romantik langsung, malah mengantukkan. note that ajik.

ape lagi? haa. mesti kat dataran manamana lah, ade buat countdown ke kan, and ramairamai orang pergi, mostly remaja. of course lah. buat pe si Pak Karim ngn Mak Limah nak tgok malam2 sbb diorg ade hal kan malam2.ehem.

saya taktahu apa yang orang buat time new year, tapi this year, boleh tak aku nak sit and play with the guitar, and sing-along with the not so good rhythm* haha*and feeling happy as ajik will be by my side this new year. ;)

enough talking about celebrating new year.

disebabkan ni last post untuk 2009, aku nak tulis panjang sikit.

2009 adalah tahun yang mendewasakan aku. *cheh*

aku habis SPM tapi tak kerja. ape yang aku buat time menganggur tu adalah melepak pagi petang siang malam.

dan get to know lotsss of people. uu

then aku start active dengan band aku. ye. band yang tak seberapa tapi dah mempunyai 3 buah lagu. wewitt. first performance kitorang was in CICT Maluri, Cheras. sangat membanggakan sebab dapat satu stage dengan Exorage! then kat situ lah kenal mereka.

tak cukup dengan perform di campus orang, kami perform di studio dan tempattempat public jugak. maklumlah time tu tengah excited kan.

then, aku stop with the band thingy sebab aku rase aku tak perlu berada dalam band sebab pembelajaran aku terganggu. tapi, ade pulak yang nak ajak buat solo. no, thanks. saya tak minat.

yes, i did write a few songs after the leaving, tapi untuk sukasuka.

oh, and ada satu lagu i wrote for this jackass, who, should i say, fuckingly fuck sebab tipu aku. dan lagu itu mengisahkan tentang katakata dan janjijanji manis pukimak dye yang tak pernah pon dye maksudkan.

whatever.

oh aku mengalami benda ni sume bila aku masuk di Management and Science University, di Shah Alam. di awal permulaan pembelajaran, aku mula mengenali few people dan skang most of them aku still hang out dan lepaklepak lagi. thanks ;)

subjectsubject di semester pertama was OKAY. tapi subject literature paling bestt! that is the subject that i've never skipped. pernah sekali, tu pon sebab orang ajak pergi shopping and time tu tengah gila tension. haha.

tapi satu semester je blaja literature memang tak seronok. kalau bole, harihari nak blaja literature.

my birthday this year was the worst. dont wanna talk about it.

then, had some conflicts in life sume, and on 30th october 2009, i am with someone that i love. wewwittt.

i started to get to know life, started to change a lil bit, not to mention, my looks, memang da berubah and orang ramai macam yang gila terkejut. hey, takperlu lah terkejut. rilex je ok. haha

but banyak sangat benda berlaku in 365 hari. and i hope, next year will be a better year ;)

satisfaction

i smiled when i looked at the paper.
i smiled when i looked at the score that i've got with my very own effort.
but you didn't smile.
you didn't.
you put tears on my face.
i thought you were going to say the 'C' word, or at least
say that you're A BIT proud of me.
but you never were.
eventhough i think i improved a lot from the very past years
but you didnt think so.
why? why did you yelled?
i was speechless when you said those to me.
i was. and i still am now.
and why did you ever get so fuck up with the numbers?
obviously, i didn't get 1 or 2. but i got 3.
and plus, it was my first year, first semester, and i had a very difficult days during my exam.
you never know.
i know i was careless. but i was. i am not now.
i promise i'll be more aware.
and i'll promise i'll give you more. not just 3 but 4 and if there's 5, i'll give you 5.
i dont care if you dont believe me or whatever. but im gonna prove it and lets see what you'll say next.

growing

i woke up at 10 am. and the first thing that came out from my mind is, should i or should i not call?, then i just ignored my thoughts and took a pen and a piece of paper and draw some crappy things. but the drawings made me feel soooo sleepy, so i went back to sleep. then i woke up and its nearly 1. gosh! lambat gila aku bangun. couldnt do anything tho. coz there's nothing to do. so then i reluctantly got out of the bed and went to shower. sejam kot mandi. bosan je.haha.
then, i wasnt soo hungry so i didnt eat at the moment. online lah. ape lagi kan!
online punye online, dah bosan. tgok youtube pon da tatau nk tengok ape. then dengar jelah lagu kan. from grind core, to hardcore, to rock and roll, to blues, to country song and jazz. peh. sume aku dengar. then somehow a song from nickelback, this is how you remind me, reminds me of my pasts. then i seek for my photo albums and awwww~ i looked at the picture of mine when i was a lil baby. it was cute!*dammit. puji diri sendiri* the baby was totally a lot diff then when she'd grown up. and yea, i remember that when i was a lil baby, i didn't cry a lot. so my assumption is i am a SILENT girl. but when i grew older, the silentness has begun to fade.*HAHA.agree?
i remember when i was a lil girl, i used to wear dresses and took my mum's make up stuff. but when i grew older, i hate those. eh, now that i am getting more mature,*am i?* i started to want to have the feeling of liking those things back :)
i remember when i was a lil girl, my dad used to bring me along to his office and put me in a basket where he can hid me from his boss. and now, i barely know which one is my dad's office room :(
when i was a lil girl, i used to watch cartoons like, barney,sailormoon,thundercats*my mum tape it for me!* and saseme streets. but now, i barely watch tv. but sometimes i get addicted to gossip girl and 90210.
when i was a lil girl, i remember that i hate barbie dolls, coz i am scared if the dolls might eat me or, any unnecessary imaginations that a lil girl would imagined. but as i grew older, i like dolls :)
when i was a lil girl, i hate flowers and but i like dresses with flowers printed on it. but now its vice versa. i like flowers, especially white rose*love it so much* and i hate, i mean i dislike clothes with printed flowers on it.
when i remembered those things, it put a smile on my face. oh, how i've changed a lot. :)

abcendol

so the fairy tales of the happily ever after where some are dead, and others get married, and died, and get married, and got kids blah blah shit is not really the talk of the week right?
keep on hiding. its making things sooo right :)

literature

i think she should, must, has to read the story written by Tillie Olsen, I Stand Here Ironing.
at least she knows.

current song:
- the kill, by 30 seconds to mars
- adam's song, by blink 182

p/s: i still love her. very much.

sticks and stones

its another plain day, woke up and did some chores, blah blah, till got a text message from ayu. jiji, nak kuar tak?ajik ajak teman makan, kate ayu. so then i went to dressed myself and ajik came to pick me up and followed by ayu's place. went to stadium to have some char kuey tiaw and popiah kat kedai Gay.*its what they called*. makan2 je, then suddenly an idea came up. jom pegi lake garden? tanye jiher. so then kitorang pon gerak pegi sane. tak buat ape pon. i just want to get my inspiration there :)

then about 30 minutes, they felt bored and wanted to go somewhere else. jom men layang2 lah,kate ajik. so then pegi la kat city park seremban2. sampai2 je tak jadi main layang2 but we fed the fishes and some tortoises. rm6 abes utk beli makanan diorg je. haha

yang ni Kassim dan yang kat blakang tu John

yang ni Macha

then malam, benda pukimak jadi, terus lepak Ijan burger. malas dok umah. tp ayu lak kena balik awl, nak tgok Las Vegas. hush. haha.

fuck.@#$%^&&^%$%^&*((*^$@#$%^&^%$#$%^&*&&*(*}{:{)(*&^%$%^&*@#$@#$(*&^

inertia

today woke up lateee. haha. tayah tanye la kul bape, tp tengahari la. then sume org. kek no weh, kate Jiher. sume kat uma. apo plan, tanye ayu. aku pon cadang la nk pegi karaoke. fuuhh. bess. aha. kemas2 umah jap, potong2 ayam jap, ayu pon sampai dari 'PD'. haha. takpo yu, den paham. haha. otw nak pegi karok, msg ar ajik sbb ajik kate kalu da gerak msg dye. haha. then karok la 10 lagu. dak ni nk jamming, dtg nameless tau, kate rafi. dey. jamming lagi. haha. dlm kul 4 lebey tu gerak la nameless. tengok2 nameless tak bukak lagi. Koi lambat plak nk bukak studio. ramai kawan2 rais, budak2 skola kat situ. adek Iz Rhapsody pon ade. *ngeh ngeh*
diya ngn rafi pon ade.
pinjam kete ayu jap nak bawak jalan2 bersama ajik. jiher,bwak la elok2, kate ajik. gelabah gak ajik ni kadang2. lekk la. pusing punye pusing akhirnye dlm kul 5.20 baru la Koi dtg bukak studio. budak2 skola ni jamming dulu. lagu2 lame douh. blink 182. aku pon sing-a-long. hahaha. seronok weh tgok adek Iz Rhapsody. da ar main bass. pehh. hahaha
then ayu chow, kena balik manjung. tata ayu!
then ajik jamming. lagu2 biasa. haha. tp besss. ajik main bass sbb takde bassist an. tp ajik main bass klaka. haha. sorry jik. :)
dlm kul 7 lebey balik laaa. sampai2 je umah, sume tengah kemas2 an. aku pon g la mandi. then tolong2 siapkan ape2 yg patut. kul 8 tu, orang sme da dtg umah. peh. ramai, kate jiher. makanan gila banyak sial. sape laa nak abehkan ni. aku ingt ade satay je. rupenye ade bbq skali. peh, ini sudah lebey. haha. msg ajik tanye kek no, tp beliau tak reply. oh lupe. pegi open house.
makan punya makan, kul 11 lebey ajik msg. mane,ji? ktorang otw umah dya, kate ajik. ala, aku takpat kuar. orang dtg umah.
dlm kul1 lebey tu baru la sume org balik. mknn tak abes sgt pon. haha.
tp sodap
tengs kepada yg mem'bbq' kan mknn ye, abg fuad, abg yan.



p/s: TAPAYAH NAK DATANG BACA BLOG ORANG NAK MARAH2. *paan,this is not for you.*